~~My Christmas Wish List~~

Jingle bells, jingle bells!!~
It's that time of the year again!!
Oh, my favorite time of the year is here again.....tis the season to be jolly!

Enough about the hype, as usual, I always like to share my wish list...which I wish, I dream I would get!
(Now, I didn't mean to make it public so that people will get it for me...but of course I would not say no to a Christmas present either, that's the joy of giving and receiving..hehe, just kidding)

1. DSLR Camera!
Yeay, this is on top of my list this year. Apparently, I have decided that I want to own one now; I think it's going to be a great teacher to explore more into my photography skills.
I'd always wanted a DSLR but lots of people told me that I am not ready for one; coz I am not that good yet.
Anyway, after all those blurry images and those lousy night shots, I have decided that I want to venture and invest in a good camera to capture those wonderful moments.
I think it's really worth it!
I have done a little bit of research and Nikon's too expensive and too high-end for me...haha, I have to humble (and economy's not good)

So, I have narrowed down to Canon and Sony which offered pretty reasonable prices for the DSLRs
Canon EOS Range: 450D

Really cool camera and I've seen promotions on this camera in KL!!

Sony Alpha-200

A 10 Megapixels DSLR, priced below RM2,000. This was definitely a worthy loot:)

Another higher range of Sony's DSLR: A300 or A350
These are expensive! Maybe once I am getting better, I shall target higher specs...but that will be in few years' time as I usually stay loyal to my belongings:p

Nikon is definitely the BEST!



2. A Pink and affordable laptop - Inspiron Dell
I like the range from 1520-1525:)


Of course, I love white Apples too....not getting too greedy:)


3. WD Passport Hard Disk

I like the one in red; too bad they don't have white:(

4. Mid-range laptops; I used to work on this project!~ *winks*
I think Dell, HP, Micron, Asus will be interesting too:)

Alright, think I have been a tech-savvy girl so far...now let me steer towards my girlie stuffs:)

5. I've had my eyes on this Clinique's Perfume set with miniature keychain lip gloss

It is a little pricey though; RM100 for all miniature stuffs. The charge is for the PDA silvery bag I think:p
But I liked the idea of a cute little lip gloss in the form of a keychain and the perfume bottle...ooooh*

6. Averine's Minerals Make-up set worth Rm199
Picture unavailable...now, if only I can get that for free:p
But then again, may not be really worth it like no.5

7. A new pair of sunnies; I can't decide which one I want yet...so that will have to wait....anyway, past Christmas...there's still my birthday to look forward to!

8. Elle's Handbag
Oh my, I am a Elle-lover...I just love most of their stuffs, and so far, in my collection, I don't have the handbag!
If only....****

9. A white clutch....yeah, don't know how this one got to the list!;p

10. Some pashmina scarves....a few of my fave colors will do *smiles*

11. Dresses....oh, I will never say no to them!!:)

12. A luxurious treat to the mani/pedicure spa....yahoo!

13. Snow globes for Christmas
I've always loved these little shake-able snow globes and I really want to collect the assorted ones for my birthdays, Christmas, etc.
I just can't describe my love for them....




14. A white watch...I love WHITE stuffs!!!

Hmmmmm....I am getting greedy, ain't I?
But that's about dreaming of a beautiful Christmas, it's really the magical time of the year....

Now, just one more.....that came to my mind:

15. Novels...my usual favorite....and I would love to get a copy of the Boleyn Girl book to read...it's just fantastic and also my Art of War...

Alright, I shall update further if anything else comes to mind.
Christmas is coming...ohhhhhh, Santa Claus is coming to town!!!!:)

Understanding the misunderstood

It's been weird since then
I can't even remember when
But I find that things are different between us
I used to think we can still be friends
But this seems to be coming to an end
I don't know how and can we mend
But if this is the road it is here and then

I am tired of the obvious avoidance
When I have done nothing to you
It was just a weird circumstance
And I thought you thought so too

When things have gone awry
The blame is not on you or me
We can just let it be
And live our lives happily

Shows that you're just afraid
But I will go straight ahead
For I have my life
And you have yours
Should we ever cross path in our lives
Which will be inevitable of course
I shall look ahead and walk
And it depends on you whether you want to talk

It seems like goodbye to me
After all the years of friendship
I wish you happiness wherever you may be
And blessings for your relationship!

It has been so long...

It has been so long since I've last updated this lil diary of mine; and I have been really busy.
Weather's been bad, and there were so many events recently...that I am pretty exhausted from it all!

Well, I shall be working on my blogs again soon, so stay tune and thanks for your support!

My hair

It's about that time of the year again, where I will look back at the entire year and wonder what have I done and do a little quick fun of summary and reviewing plus reflecting on things I have done and have yet to do.

Besides the serious part of changing my walking direction in life and career, I had also gone down that crazy aisle; in terms of funky outlook and also the courageous decision of now or never of toying with my hair!

From the conventional straight hair, I had taken to curling my hair...for the FIRST TIME!
Now you see it straight; fresh from a haircut the year before


To curly curly


And recently, I just trimmed it a little shorter and bounced it wavy


I don't know which one I like better; and sometimes, I do miss my good ol' straight hair too!
Curly hair can be really stressful on bad hair days....at least straight hair is always straight huh?:)

Time after time

I really do miss those schooling days, no kidding, I do.
Perhaps of my love for studying, reading and just being in the process of learning new things every day
I've never ever wanted to skip school; or even classes when I was in university (no matter how crappy the subject is)
Call me nerdy or whatsoever, I just love being able to be there for my own education
That's why my parents never had to worry about me; whether I am studying or not, getting good grades and all because I know what I am doing
In fact, I love doing what I do (of course I have to admit sometimes the subjects are too tough too)

University life was different; it was all constantly on how fast and how brilliant you are, furthermore when you choose a science-driven path
At times, it was pretty tough and you feel lost, but I gritted my teeth and pulled it through
I never did like to lose, and to hell with the word fail as well
I just don't, perhaps I am being enveloped by the kiasu-nism culture, but it has always been me
I never give up without putting up a real tough fight
Of course, being a human being...at times, you want to space out and breathe a little

Well, after the 4 years in my university, I am ready for the big world (or so I thought)

However, I realized that the big world is much more than what I had imagined it to be
In fact, I came across people who are way meaner than people in school
Some go to all the extent to give others a hard time, just to maintain their own jobs
Some don't even know what they are doing...

It's a totally different world out there and sometimes, you just have to learn to deal with it
Imagine yourself balancing on a tight rope or a really really big ball

It's all about keeping that balance...and of course, don't lose your sanity in the process
I am still learning, and it's all a game with the time
What is the meaning of life if there is no ups and downs anyway?

Just go with the flow, and experience the different phases of time

Realize

Takes time to realize....

The opening line from Colbie Caillat's song just caught itself in my mind; playing again and again and it just made me realize, that time has flown past me and it seems like yesterday that when everything just started.

Haha...realize, and finally it dawned upon me
From a kid who aims at getting 100% in all her test papers to getting perfect scores in all her spelling/dictation tests and being the top of the class to an ordinary girl who wanted to top herself among the country's top students who came to a private university to study and found herself banging her head on the wall and wondering why she took the course but then started to enjoy and being positive and then having so much fun at convo and now, she's all ready to go out into the working world.
Oh, was that 3-4 years ago?

Looking back, it seems like some life I've been through...and people think I'm doing great and all, but the truth, I am just an ordinary everyday and next-door type of gal like any of you out there.
I have 2 eyes, 2 ears, a nose and a mouth, and a mass of hair on top of my head, two hands/arms, a pair of feet....and my height may be a little lower than average though:p

Realize...
I realized that I've gone through my childhood...(After all, I am an adult now, right?)

Primary School:
All those coloring pencils, crayons, water colors, brushes, 2B Staedtler pencils, collection of erasers, ohhhh....and those colored ice-cream sticks we used to collect during those school days....

Secondary School:
Prefectorial Board, St John Ambulance, English Society, Art Club, History Society, Photography Club....PMR, SPM.....Science classes....they've all been such wonderful memories. Responsibilites and part and parcel of being aware of your surroundings start from here

University:
Independence starts here....being out on your own...learning to do your own laundry, cleaning up your room weekly, changing your bedsheets, getting your own meals, etc.
I have also enjoyed being a DJ here...and meeting even more new people...and oh, I have organized my own prom night before for my faculty, the first time ever and I threw in a rather retro theme too....what's the theme I gave now...oh yeah, it was 'Retro Romance and Funkadelic Love'
(now who would give such a name for a prom theme, right?)
But there goes, crazy me...probably not a very successful one but I had to work with my own bare hands and the part about getting sponsors...boy, that was depressing but then again, looking at the positive side, it was a pretty enriching experience for me!~
I was even English Slot DJ manager and I've won an award in the DJ competition, oh yes I did, and I've tried going on live and being broadcasted to a bunch of newly recruited deejay-wannabes in the hall where they get to hear me talk about a bunch of nonsense.
But then again, yours truly did win something after all...haha, the most informative DJ...and popularity was nowhere in a far distance anymore.
I have gone through a week of not sleeping for my very first programming assignment and it was horrifying (i sleep at 9-10 most of the time...so this was definitely a torture for me!~)
I've gone through an internship in a huge Norwegian shipping company and enjoyed those days.

My first job:
I landed my first job in a company that made everyone go 'WOW' when they heard where I was working. In fact, I felt very happy that I got myself in there despite the constant rumors that it was some kind of pressure cooker....
But I still enjoyed it...

Today...
I just realized that it's been a really really long journey but that's made me who I am...

Anything else I realized?
Oh yeah...lots more....
1. I don't look forward to my birthdays anymore (and I used to wonder why people don't) for the fact that I am getting older...hahaha, girls never did like to be reminded of their age...
But then again, to think positive, I should be glad that I am getting older....coz everyone can be young but not everyone gets to be older...life is short!~
2. I don't depend on dad for financial support anymore...oh yea...I am financially independent...
3. I no longer tie my hair with cute little ribbons or funky hair bands anymore....although I still like matching my hair accessories or my bags, shoes with my clothes
4. I thought I didn't like frilly frocks but now, I love all sorts of dresses!~
Guess a girl will always be a girl:)
5. I drive now...haha, oh girl, that's definitely the fun part...I drive!~
6. I can't think of much but I do know there's a very very long list out there....and oh ya...also the fact that I own more than 5 blogs (crazy me) and still enjoying the expansion of more blogs...and I still have fun maintaining them!~

Realize...what have you realized so far?

A Rose among the Thorns

Sometimes it's not easy being a working lady in that world of men...
To strive for the best, you need to work your way to the top and work hard you have to
Much as we strive for equal rights, there are still people out there who just stereotype you because of your gender

I do not care what you think because I will get what I want
Guys do not dominate the society anymore
We have our own minds now too....
We were once deprived of our education but not today
We will show you who wears the pants now!~

Ladies, if you happen to be surviving in a world where everyone around you at work is a male, fret not because being one who wears the skirt doesn't mean we can't do our work
We will show them how we use our brains
And no lady is dumb; so stop calling pretty/blondes, or any lady dumb!~

Little Fashionista

For a moment, I was stunned
"You're not gonna make me carry this bag on my business trip to the airport, right?"

He nods, tilting his head to the side
"It's a small enough bag and it looks nice enough for you"

But....but.....but, it's.....not trendy!~
I managed to stammer out; trying my best not to hurt his nice intentions; but there goes, damage done.
(I gotta be honest, don't I?)

Trendy? It's just a bag; and you're just there for like 2-3 days!~

Ermmmm......I know it's no LV, Prada, Gucci...but is there anything better? Or can you get me anything with wheels?

Huh...okay, here's another one...small enough for business trip and just the type with wheels..

It's black....do you have anything in bright colors; pink or red?
(Doe-eyed and wide with desperation; slightly arched eyebrows and pleading voice)

PINK???(like that's a horrendous word!)
I'm a guy...and black is the versatile color...everyone carries a black bag...isn't that trendy enough?
(DUHHHHH.....That's why it's so not COOL when you're carrying the same colored bag; like you came out of a factory or a tour group or something!)

SIGHS....
Seriously, that was just a re-enactment of my recent episode on getting a small luggage bag for business trip.
I guess being a girl, we are always being fussy and insists on looking cool and fashionable; besides being trendy. (or is it just me being overly fussy?)

I do not know since when or how it started; but I have been really particular about stuffs I have or wear...haha, being a little miss perfectionist, I just want to look good.
And what's wrong with having a cute and nice little bag which will follow on your heels at the airport which will make you look all the more cooler?
(I don't intend to turn heads; but I just like to look really nice - self-satisfaction or self-centered?:p)

Anyway, I am working on my own little female zine and it's gonna include fashion...I am gonna be my own fashion writer soon...hehe, but only from my own point of view anyway (disclaimer), so maybe, that's the contributing factor to my recent keen attitude to being trendy?
Yeah...that must be it....(*smiles*)

For the past 6 months...

Let me review what has been going for the past few months...hmmmm, it's not exactly a short period of time but neither has it been too long but why does it feel like ages?
Anyway, I believe that I am on my path to the fullest of my life and I am determined to make sure that it is!

Now, let's see...what did I do in these significant few months
1. Made a move; a rather difficult decision but hopped from one ark to another
2. Received excellent appraisals from all my bosses
3. Accepted an assignment which required relocation
4. Believed in the theory of working harder when you think you've worked hard enough (courtesy of Ernie Chen's theory)
5. Felt inspired by Ernie Chen
6. Changed my longtime hairstyle
7. Spent more $$$ (this is not a very proud thing)
8. Traveled to Europe! (Weeehaaaa!! but the culture was not as great as I had expected though - maybe it's just unique)
9. Expanded my blog's network
10. Expanded my facebook's networking circle
11. Worked towards the first step to create my own website
12. Start to take an interest in politics (hahaha....I used to dislike politics; rather sensitive issues but I am rather intrigued by the stories circulating the headlines these days although I am also not really that encouraged by them:p)
13. Enjoy driving on the road - it is always a pleasure to drive, so why rush when you are not in a hurry? Besides, it's really a nice moment when you give way to another driver
14. Flew on a one-day business trip to Bangkok just merely for a presentation - now I know how corporate travel is like and how it feels to be a frequent business traveler...not so fun!
15. Signed up for an expensive deal which I will never do before this
16. Speak up my mind!
17. Met with some corporate top shots...
18. Presented to an audience like a pro!
19. Mimicked Zig Ziglar and started to like him
20. Adopted an online puppy:)
21. Worked on my female zine!

Gosh...I can't believe I have done that much....I believe that's not all and I am determined to do more.
With hard work and determination, that's where it will bring to much greater heights...

And I have the great LORD and my ever understanding family and friends to thank for:)

Red Shoes

Okay okay, I know I am becoming a shoe fanatic....but it has been sometime...just that I decide to use my blog to share my love for shoes as well...hehe!
Or you can also go to my female blog to view more of my loves and all about gals!

Red shoes...I don't know about you but red always remind me of striking and bold, and definitely stunning!

Red with black just spells sassy and elegance!


And these just reminds me of ladybirds...hehehe


Fire engine red



Awwww...for the love of shoes!

At a crossroad

Don't misunderstand, I am not in a middle of career crisis or anything like that.
Far from it, I am actually enjoying working and strive to work as hard as I can to achieve great success and I am pretty sure I can do it:)

I do know that this is not a simple world out there; and this is really testing for me.
Sometimes, there are things I find that are just not agreeable with but I learnt that there are things you need to learn to survive out there.
Of course, thank God, I do not do anything that is illegal or harm others.
I will never ever do something to hurt others in order to attain my own success.

Again, it is never easy though when you need to live in a dog-eats-dog world.
Even in a safe world of engineering and IT, there will always be obstacles and people with bad intentions to achieve their own success; what more when you move to a realistic business and commercial world!

I keep my conscience clear and I am still paving my own path to my own success which I am sure will alight in a short term after my hard and smart work:)
Ganbatte and BASHA for myself!

I want one!~

These are just simple bags but somehow I was really taken by them
I want one of them!!~

Check out my Voices of Eve blog for more of my fashion loves:)

Confession of a shoe-a-holic

I have a confession to make; I LOVE shoes, I really do!
Not that I don't have the same love for clothes (blouses, skirts, denims,etc), dresses, accessories, bags, etc...but well, we are all girls after all, and shoe fetism is something common for some of us girls.

For me, I couldn't exactly remember when my fetish for shoes started - I think since young but definitely it heightened when I started working.
Staying away from home, I spent my weekends in shopping malls and enjoyed window shopping.
Then I started buying my very first pair of shoe; denim sandals which was about 2 1/2 inches high when one of my old sandals broke.
I guess that was when I found shoe shopping was so fun and there and then, I enjoyed going into shoe shops and trying out on shoe by shoe.
Of course, being me, I am kinda stringent on my own budget; some may call me a controlled shopper or to some, I am seen as plain stingy:p

However, despite doing window shopping, I have to admit I still buy some of the shoes that I really love (and I do fall in love with a lot of shoes:p)
Daddy thinks I have way too many shoes...but I still love to pop in and out of shoe shops.
of course, I am also constantly on my own budget check..but I really LOVE the shoe shopping part!!~

I especially love heels and recently, in love with boots:)


Oooo..I came across this pair of nice satin blue heels on the internet, isn't it sweet?


And this pair of red stilletos with a ribbon sash behind, is also too sweet!


And with the Mega Sales around, hmmmm....:D

One more note, why is it so hard to find small-sized shoes during sales?
I always thought it's the other way round! SIGHS!

Shopaholic Girl

I do not know when have I become such a shopaholic.
(Lets out a BIG sigh)

It must have been the power of buying when you earn your own wages and the satisfaction that you hold the authority of buying something for yourself.
I am a very cautious buyer; and rather controlled as well although I must say I have a fetish for shoes, bags, dresses, clothes, watches, jackets, earrings...alright, you name it, I just love it.
It is a normal thing about girls, ain't it?
We just can never get enough of shopping for new things....despite our overflowing wardrobe and yet we still whine, "Nothing to WEAR!!!"

*Smiles sheepishly*

I really do love shoes; somehow I just always have a soft spot for them...and I just love looking at them and then picking one pair for myself.
Dangerous shopaholic girl!

I gotta stop all that; and spend wisely....which, by the way, reminds me, my credit was really low last month, does that mean I can shop freely this month?
*Winks*

New challenge

I never did know what I am in for when I embarked on this new journey; and taking up a new challenge - treading on a path which I do not know its strength in holding my weight.
It was a risky move, as everyone else says and I was commended as being a courageous person to make that deviation in my own life.
I thought of nothing but just of my hope and a courage to make things happen.

I have read that there are only 2 types of people in this world; one who waits for things to happen and the other; makes things happen.
I'd rather pick the latter; and as such, I have always put my foot forward when my heart and mind says so.
That doesn't mind I didn't like what I was doing previously, but yet, I know that it is not fulfilling enough for me.
Call me ambitious, but I see much more great things out there waiting for me to unravel.

And today, I have entered almost a quarter of the year in the new environment and I have found a new area to explore which I know I have the potential and the right skills to do so.
Much as I missed where I came from previously, I still look forward to the future with my new opportunities which seems to be coming on one by one.
I remembered this particular phrase which was uttered by a senior manager in my previous company whom I look up to; "Everything in life is about opportunity. Even with capability and the skills, the right element is an opportunity. If you seize an opportunity, you've landed yourself higher than the rest"

This was the reason I took up a recent opportunity offered by my boss.
It was a voluntary challenge and requires more travel and sort of relocation. Nobody in my team seems to be up for it; but I was pretty much geared for it.
When my boss asked me about it personally, I took a day to think over it - and my answer is only in 2 words; "Why NOT?"

I don't see obstacles; I only see it as an opportunity.
If I don't take this one, I will just be left wondering. However, I can test my own capabilities if I proceed.
Some may ask, what if it doesn't work out?
I will just say, why think of the NOT's when we can think of CANs?

It may sound ambitious and unrealistic, but that's just me being the positive thinker.
I like to think of only great and successful things and not what if I fail. Failure never is a word in my dictionary.
I am starting to prepare mentally for my new task; a journey which I am looking forward to.
Chances are; 50% realistically. If I were to do this well, I am up for a bright new career prospects and positioning. On the other hand, it may not be that bad either.

After all, we'll never know if we never try, right?
How bad can it get anyway?

Wish me luck in my upcoming endeavor!~

Room frenzy

I have just got back from my business trip; yahoo, I shall reveal and update in my travel blog very soon!
Anyway, the trip was great although both my luggages were casualties as a result of the heaving and probably heavy throwing around when they load and unload it from the planes.
SIGHS!
Now both my luggages are sent for inspection by the airlines and will probably be repaired by their luggage agent.
That was really the sad part; but besides that and all the undone shopping, I must mention that it has been a great trip in general!
In fact, I have another business trip coming up again but this is a very very short trip and no more extended vacation trip:p

Well, I have done enough damage shopping (LAUGHS) and I have a whole room to tidy up and pack with all my stuffs.
Seriously, I spent the whole Saturday (yesterday) to clean up and organize the whole room and it's only halfway done although there was already a major change in the room.
If you're thinking that I have a big room, well, you're wrong!
My room is of medium size and some may even say it's probably small; or rather, looks small due to the stuffs I have in my room.
I do have a lot of stuffs; not bragging coz they are mostly junk (NOT all). I have got to spend my time organizing, packing and throwing away unused stuffs or else my room's gonna turn into a huge heap of garbage pile soon!
It was a really tiring experience yesterday; for someone who has never done household chores. Lucky me to have a wonderful mummy who refuse to let her daughter lift a finger on all rough work(or so she says).
Therefore, I was really having a lot of "fun" yesterday; since it was my own room. I injured my toe and also my knee; will all the bumping around and scratches on me.
*Sobs*

I really do need to take a break today' and probably just do some minor packing here and there; and cross my fingers that this will all be settled really soon!

Disappointing!

A recent discovery about people close to me really shocked me...and I am truly disappointed!
Nothing to talk about yet; but just one word,

DISAPPOINTING!

SICK!`

I have gotten the virus from dear....sore throat, flu.....hopefully no cough....my body feels so weak and the runny nose is really irritating me.
Dry throat caused my voice to be hoarse....yikes...hate that.

I do miss going to work....I've just gotten back from Penang and now I'm on MC.....I wanted to go to work so much....anyway, I am going back to work tomorrow...hehe, have recovered....though there's still a runny nose and throat's still dry...but am looking forward to going back to work...being busy!!

Gone were those days when I felt otherwise:p

Weird Dream

I was really tired last week; to the exhausted point....and I was feeling rather unwell this whole week; particularly towards the end of the week.
I was kinda relieved to get off work early on Friday and slept really early.

Alright, last night (Saturday night), I settled down early and slept all the way through until early 4.30am this morning.
Then, I woke up again at about 5.53am; and that was when I had a really weird dream.

Take note that I do know a bit about interpreting dreams (as in my other posts); but initially even I was baffled about this dream.
However, I finally figured it out later.....to reveal at the end of this post

I fell asleep this time; and I was lying on my bed; looking straight at my door (I was in my room); same scene as I was in.
However, the difference is; I felt paralysed on the bed; I couldn't move nor couldn't speak/squeak a word.
I tried to shout...but nothing came out.
I wanted to make my way to the door; and I couldn't.
I seemed to be held on the bed...immobilised.

Then I felt the bed shook; seriously....I was closing my eyes and singing my church hymn; praying to God.
Then I kept looking at the door; and wanted to get out but couldn't.
Then i woke up...yes, back to reality.

I forced my eyes open and I saw my room door again; this time there's a glimpse of light outside. That's in reality.

Somehow, I sunk back into sleep again and again, I see the same scene again my dark room...and I was on bed; immobilised again and trying so hard to shout and move towards the door.
But I couldn't...it was a great struggle....then I found that I somehow feebly managed to walk to the door; and I grabbed the door knob with my remaining strength...cannot turn the knob

Then I woke up again; and then again slip back into the dream again; and this time, I managed to turn the door knob but it was so DARK outside!
Impossible...coz the hall outside my room is lit with lights at night; fluorescent light.

Suddenly, I forced myself to wake up; I forced open my eyes and I woke up.
I found that I am once again back in my room...again....same scene, practically there's no difference between in reality and in dream.
But this time, I forced myself to get up from my bed and opened the door...

This time, I was definitely in reality; as I saw light!
Thank God!!

It was really a rather terrifying dream for myself; however, I was not that scared though.
Maybe because I felt rather consoled in God's presence.
Perhaps I have always believed in God...and I know HE will never forsake me:)

Anyway, there are perhaps different explanations for this dream...
From religious or spiritual side, I start to feel guilty probably for missing church masses and probably, it's showing me that I should not do so.

From psychological point of view, this is a line between conscious and subconsious.
I believe that I want to settle down; and there is a future lying in front of me that I want to believe.
Past the denial stage, I believe that things are opening up for me to see. I am still wondering at the degree of the reliability of my own decision to take this new path.
Part of me believes that good things lie ahead; but another part of me still believes that there's doubt in front.
That's why I keep waking up and slipping back into sleep; cannot differentiate between real and dream....

That right now I don't know whether what I wish for or aspire may not be right or will it turn out to be reality...

Whatever it is, I pray to God to show me the right way and to take things slow...
I do need more rest...and relax more...
And of course, HOLY WATER....to sprinkle over room....AMEN:)

I'm Lovin it!

My colleague Johnson asked me a question last week, "How do you find things after 2 months here?"

I was so busy at that time that I was gathering a few files and hastily replied, "Let me find a time to use a suitable adjective to describe how I find things now...hehe, coz I am getting tired of using the word 'interesting' again"

That brought a chuckle and he agreed.

But frankly, I used to think that change will not be easy and I was formerly in a slight denial stage; okay, maybe not slight...a major denial process.
Now, as I start to pick up the momentum and getting into the right books, I am actually enjoying the stuffs I do around here!!
Yeah, it's not easy but it's not hard either; and also, it can get really busy at times and there are several different projects to work on at the same time.
Sounds hectic right?

But I do love being busy!
I sound crazy or sadistic?
Nope....just that I always liked it that I know what I am doing and I get to do things.Being busy makes me feel a part of everything and that makes me feel important!
Egoistic a little?
Well....I just love to feel important and useful...
Where's there a will, there's always a way....
Where there's a way...there's always an opportunity!
To me, where there's something to do, there's always opportunities and when there's opportunities, there's definite chances of success!~

*BIG GRIN*

Job - Love or Hate

I came across this blog; by this girl a year my junior (we came from the same uni anyway).
I have been reading her blog regularly and her posts about work kinda brings me some memories as well.
She has been pretty frustrated with work; which I am assuming that she is experiencing burnout.

It's really tough when you are earning an income; and going to the same place and doing something to earn yourself that $$$ to your dream career, home and car.

That's why it is really important to be happy with what you are doing; after all, life is short and we should really feel happy in everything we do.

I had gone through a period like that and I turned from an optimistic and cheerful girl to a moody and pessimistic person.
Turning back to reflect and look at myself in the mirror, I told myself that things must change and I smiled at myself every morning to work; smiling at everything that comes my way at work.

It was still tough...but I still made it through....
But the most important is your own decision; whether you really like what you are doing.
Most people are resistant to change or too timid to make a move that may affect their life.

It is a risk to take; I admit, but it is a choice.
Things can get tough of course, and most of the time, after a change, you will go through resistance and denial mode.
I have gone through all these....it's not easy...but it's not that tough either...and I am glad to say that looking back at all the things, I am still proud and though with a heavy heart, I still stand tall at my past achievements and journey with pride and now, I look forward to a great and beautiful future:)

I pray to God for HIS guidance and I will pave my way along with HIS help:)

My dream car...(S)

I have my good ol' car right now..nothing to complain about, in fact I love the solid look and comfort of my car which I own for about 3 years now.

However,I have to say that there are a few cars that I have particular preference...

Toyota Vios


Funny why I am looking at the old model Vios rather than the latest release?

That's coz I find this older model nicer than the newer one although the latter still look charming:)


Another one....this was my dream car since when I was little kid...hehe

Striking red and stylish...:D


And this is another COOL car!:D

Really stylish...wow:)


Cool....and did I mention I was a Toyota fan?:D

Success and triumph

If you had read my main blog, you will know the story of my Friday (yesterday).

However, my main focus was actually more on the end of the day...
I was really elated and satisfied; seriously, it was a great feeling of satisfaction when you know that your efforts didn't go to waste.
Especially when you have overcame all those "noises" and grunts of others but you did the right things right.

It was the first time I felt so accomplished and despite the ups and downs in this job, it was really interesting and produce astonishing results that really made me feel good!

I can see that this is definitely a chance worth exploring and I believe that my best is still yet to be displayed *winks*
All the BEST and only the BEST to myself (wishing myself:p)

Unorganized and miscommunication

I am not a very organized person; although I like seeing things in perfect order and such.
However, I have gone through organizations where they keep things at a very systematic level and well-organized.
Yeah, nobody is perfect, but yet, organization to a certain extent for me is truly important.(I am actually a very particular person).

Therefore, I find unorganized things agitating and can be really confusing.
For instance, I am trying my hand at a new system; and with the shallow and surface training they provided me, I started using the system.

Then this lady start coming up to my desk today telling me that I do not have the achieved quota based on the data keyed into the system.
Weird...and I tried to explain to her....that my boss mentioned that my related data should only be retrieved from this month onwards...meaning, next month to extract this month's summary.

She said no..my boss told her from this month onwards.
I don't know how to explain to her since she seemed disbelieving and I gathered she has already formed her own perception that I am too dumb to use her system.

Well....IT SAP system...hahaha, not to be mean, but I don't carry what degree I major in my daily interaction with everyone...

Whatever, I still prefer to brush off others' perception of me...with a SMILE:)

3rd Visit and removal of dressing

Yesterday I had a slightly unpleasant experience; but nothing bad.
After work, I went for my 3rd (and hopefully the final) visit to the clinic to check on my small wound which has felt itchy for the past 2 days.

As the nurse removed the bandage, the wound seemed to have shrunk and the surface has dried; with a new layer of cell on it.
It looks good; according to the doctor and the nurse cleansed the wound again and applied some of those yellow solution to it.

There will be no more bandage anymore to allow faster recovery of the wound!

I am not posting my pics anymore....haha, it is seriously not that nice to look at:p

I won't be wearing skirts at the moment until the wound has fully recovered without any scar or mark:)
*Keeping my fingers crossed and praying to God*

2nd Dressing

Yesterday I went for my follow-up at my family doctor; to undress the wound and check the condition of my little wound.

The wound is slowly healing; and it was really scary when the nurse was peeling off the plaster to reveal the wound.

Thank God there were no pus, etc...and then they cleaned it again; and applied the yellow ointment with an addition of antibiotic on the wound.
Then, they dressed it again....sighs...and I need to go back again after 3 days on Monday:(

The new dressing:)

Bleeding!

OUCH OUCH OUCH!!!

Today I fell down the staircase as I was walking towards the carpark area after work.
It was a short slip but yet, even I was surprised by the red spot that appeared on my knee cap after the fall.
I had to endure the pouring rainfall to make my way towards the carpark in the neighbouring building!

OUCH!!!
I am not concerned about the pain; but rather the ugly fact that it's gonna be ugly with a wound there:(
Call me vain but a bloody wound is definitely so unattractive when it comes to wearing skirts.
Yet, when I wear pants, it's gonna rub against the fabric...SIGHS!

I held my little handkerchief against the wound while I drive home and Daddy and Mummy were so concerned about the wound.
It was a small wound actually; but I felt so pampered....really spoilt Daddy's princess huh?

After my bath, Daddy insisted that I go to our family doctor for cleaning and dressing of the wound; basically to apply some antiseptic on the wound to avoid inflammation.

The nurse even praised me for being a brave girl who didn't even scream or wince at the sight of the blood or wound.
She cleansed it properly and was amazed at how quiet and friendly I was towards her.

After cleansing the wound and ensuring there's no foreign materials (such as grain of sand, stone, etc), she turned to apply iodine next.
WOW!!
That was super painful!!!!
Should I say, really PAINFUL!!

I had to grit my teeth through it and didn't even scream.
Then she applied the cream...for quicker recovery of the skin growth around the wounded area.
It costed RM13 for the entire treatment but for the insurance of it, the doctor even told me to go back in 2 days' time for further check up and to ensure the recovery of the wound.

I know Daddy and Mummy was really heartbroken to see my wounded; and blamed it on my white heels....aiks!!
I do so love my white heels....even my beloved darling was so heartbroken and in despair to hear about my wound...

Thanks for all your concern...
I didn't want to gross you all out with the wound; despite it being a small wound...
It's now cleaned up and properly dressed


Patiently waiting for 2 more days....please recover without any further effects


I don't want scars...nor ugly marks...
I may be brave in enduring the wound cleaning and dressing, but vanity is still a girl's pride:p
*Yeah....call me a spoilt princess!

Travel woes

Traveling can be so fun and yet the planning can be so annoying as well....
Okay...I am so hyped and yet, I am tired of the endless pressure the planning exerted on me...
Furthermore, some people were just so unhelpful....

For instance, the travel desk lady who was so moody and monotonous the whole time I was in the office seeking for her consultation
I know it's Monday and the blues come along with it....
However, there is no way to rub it off on others who were probably chirping along in spirit; despite it being a Monday...

Anyway, I still believe in myself....hehe and the fun and happiness will come along..naturally
Cheers to myself!~

Mysterious disappearances

A prayer to St Anthony; please pray for me that I will find all my missing stuffs...
I really have no idea where they went; I can't even recall when I am so confused

First I lost my little Mickey cell phone pouch; it was a really nice one....one that fits my little Sony perfectly (black pouch with printed Pink Mickey silhouettes on it)
And it's entering the 2nd week that it's disappeared....

Now this weekend, I've lost 2 lip sticks...
My lip balm and my silver cased red lipstick.....I have absolutely no idea where it went....
Not that they are brand new or anything; in fact they are almost wearing out....
But the thing is...where did they go?
It's really frustrating when you lose item by item and you have totally no idea where they went....

It's like vanishing into thin air.....
St Anthony, please pray for me....

Weekend

Weekends are much anticipated to during the weekdays; whether you are working or studying...that much never changes.
And I am always amazed at how swift the 2 days pass most of the time

During the week, I always look forward to the 2-days weekend and think of where I wanna go, or what I wanna do.
Then come the much-awaited Friday evening when I get out of the office and arrive at home...and then I laze around at home...during the rainy weather, listening to the pattering of the rain drops on my window pane.
Saturday morning comes and all of a sudden, I just want to spend some time at home, spending some quality time with myself and with my parents who are just looking aged over the years.
Furthermore, I don't want to make them worry if I go out; knowing the endless worries parents have and also the increasing crime rates around.

Away from the reason, sometimes I just feel so tired after a whole week of brain-energizing and physical exertion during the weekdays, I just want to laze around and enjoy the comforts of home; shielded from the harmful sun that I really dislike.

Some may perceive that as disengaged from the society; however I don't think so.
I may be a little introvert; but I am still a person who enjoys going out and socializing although on a lower count compared to others.
Perhaps it is probably just my character:)

Today is again Sunday night...sighs, how time flies past...
Tomorrow will be the start of yet another working week..not that I dread working that much...but weekends are still nice....
Well...it's just 5 days....hehehe
Oh...for the next weekend....

Defeated...and yet gloryyyy

I never did like defeats, losses...whatever you call that..
Sounds like a snob?
Probably I am...who knows but I always bask in the glories of victories....and triumphs... (who doesn't anyway?)

Perhaps I have been spoilt by victories....
Today looking at a small defeat, it really bothered me....
But yet, I learnt something from a great team...and I find comfort in the support and sharing in the team which backed me up

It may be a defeat but looking at a different side of it, it could turn out to be a victory from another perspective
I choose to look at the other side of the coin this time....it's definitely a victory...:D

A New Day has come

I realized that I have been writing rather gloomily over here; which is really demotivating for the blog and the readers; misleading all of you about the cheery gal I am:)

I was not really miserable but rather, as I have mentioned, going through a phase where I had to make decision and a long thought of my life and direction.
You can call it a hermit period; where I shut to myself and think.....hehehe....not meditating:p

Right now, I am learning new things everyday...and I can use 4 adjectives:
Exciting
Interesting
Challenging
Surprising

Everyone is right....life is really full of surprises....and I have been hearing all the angelic words from everyone around me....which I should like to quote here

"Not everyday is sunny and with clear blue skies...."

"Always do what you think is right and keep on searching until you found the path you want to tread on"

"We should always look out for new things to learn"


And lastly, my own quote....
" A bad or good thing...it lies in the eyes of your self-perception"

Keep those surprises coming.... and you will truly be amazed...

Silver lining

The hardest thing in this world is not about making mistakes
But rather the strength to live on and to learn from mistakes

Moreover sometimes it may not be a mistake
There is always a silver lining beneath the clouds

When we are clouded by emotions, the reason behind every decision may not be right
but once a move is made, then we are definitely right about the decision

The first part was hard about making a decision
the second part was thinking whether it is a right thing
The third was to living with the decision

But I do believe that with faith, God is always there to guide us
If I do not try, the silver lining may not exist, but with the move made, there will be a golden lining!:)

Forever in my memory

Achieving is always deemed as a success and to hold on to your dream is also a pride....
However, the hardest thing is actually learning how to let go... which I believe is simply even harder than acquiring or maintaining....

There is always a time for glory and triumph and also moments when you have to move on to another phase of life... and that is where you need to let go...
You will never be forgotten of course and you will always be a legacy in memory...

Take pride in all you have done and the footprints you have left
And leaving them behind to a new successor all in stride:)

Sometimes...

Have you ever taken time to look at things seriously and considered your choice of decisions carefully?
Sometimes, it is hard to say "Never look back"...
Sometimes, you are not even sure whether you are doing the right thing...
Sometimes, you just want to ignore and let go of everything...
Sometimes, you really want to shout out and tell the whole world what is in your mind/heart...
Sometimes, you just wish you can just stop pretending you are happy when you are not..
Sometimes, it is hard to make choices which you know you don't like but have to...
Sometimes, you find it hard to say something which you want to...
Sometimes, it is so hard to trust people...
Sometimes, it is scary to even look at yourself in the mirror...
Sometimes, you just want to scream...
Sometimes, you really want to stand up and give the whole world a piece of your mind..
Sometimes, it is hard to act like a grown-up when you still want to have fun...
Sometimes, sometimes, sometimes...

Sometimes, just want to run away and not look back....
Sometimes I Run, Sometimes I hide...

Farewells...

Recently I have been receiving endless farewell emails almost every single Friday....it is really depressing to see people leaving. So much for the boost of motivation, huh?

However, of course I do know that they are leaving for better prospects and pray for their future well-being as well:D
There are many reasons people are leaving; and it is all within their own jurisdiction and goals in life.

It is a norm of life; where there is always acquaintance and goodbyes and that is how we cross path with different people and walks of life.
What is life without hi and byes, birth and death right?

Look at bright side of it....there's always a silver lining beneath every cloud and I wish all of my friends a very bright and sparkling lining there!:D

Looking back at 2007...

Seems like everyone has done a review of their year 2007 and it's already 15 days into the New Year 2008 and I still have been neglecting the update in my little blog:p

Well, let me see, this is not easy ya....the whole entire year in summary, and you know me, I love to write, summarizing is always the antonym of my interest (not saying that I can't summarize:p)
Anyway, January 2007...
Celebrated my birthday with a BIG bang!! And was really happy:)
Went to Langkawi with GPTW gang for a fun trip:D

Farewell to Siew Chin who left for Singapore

Taiping and Pangkor Trip


February 2007
Upset for not being able to go back to KL for CNY due to my design project

Celebrated CNY in Penang with Mummy, Daddy and bro who made the last-minute trip to Penang! Thanks...*touched* Muacks!!:D

March 2007
Cut my hair

From Long to short


April 2007
Singapore Trip

Moved out of being caretaker of my ex-Big Boss's house
And I found myself a new place

Start of a nightmare with a crazy and insane housemate:(


May 2007
Busies time...project engagement:(

June 2007
Japan and Korea Trip on Intel Business:)



Visited Tokyo, Seoul, Nagano, Dae-jeon and Arai Industrial plant


July 2007
St Anne's Pilgrimage, Bukit Mertajam



August 2007
Hong Kong Trip






November 2007
Annual Dinner - Masquerade Night @ G Hotel

Dec 2007
Decorated my humble cube in Kulim with Frosty:D

Merry Christmas!!:D




That is my rather eventful year 2007!!