No more dreams...

It's not that I am not having anymore dreams; in fact, I have been dreaming a series of dreams lately; and they seem to all revolve around different environments and different people seem to appear in each night's dream.

I think I have seen my relatives, my cousins, my ex-colleagues, my old classmates, my old admirers, some old childhood friends and even existing colleagues (only 1 or 2 from them though).

I can't help but think that almost everyone has appeared except my close loved ones...which is odd.

I know there is something there that I need to figure out; and there seems to be connection that is just staring right back at me.

Give me some time; while I sort out my thoughts and collect my senses back....I will have the answer soon...

Anyway, I don't want to continue to make this blog a 'Dreams' Blog as I kept posting on my dreams...that will make it so dull and monotonous.

That's why, no more dreams! Unless I have a really bizarre and crazy dream which I just have to share on;)

It's finally Friday, TGIF...and don't wish me sweet dreams or anything like that anymore.
I hope for a non-REM sleep this time...sound sleep is good!:D

Is it worth it?

I am really tired of all these stuffs I am doing

I felt that I have tried my best in everything and end of the day, there doesn't seem to be anyone appreciating or even an utter of thanks
Not that I am looking forward to be some poster pin-up in the Hall of Fame or something like that, but the very least is, don't instead try to put me and my efforts down. It's like pouring a bucket of ice down my back; sends a chill down my spine in a bloodcurdling way.

I am sure that my recent posts on my main blog and here has given a brief and general overview of what's going on with me and yeah, my work (it seems to be an endless topic, huh?)

I felt so unappreciated and demotivated by such a working environment and don't even get my started on teamwork.
I have worked my best and really, I really tried everything I could to do what I can beyond my own expectations.
I don't want to be just an employee who receives her list of tasks in a note form and just perform according to that; without even using the capacity of the brain cells.

Yet, what I get is a word of that I should not have done that because it is not at my level.
All these talks about transparency and respect are pushed to the background.
I tell you, if I did not make an initiative to try to resolve the issue and just decided to get help, they will again, of course, say that I have no initiative and no sense of responsibility; only depending on spoonfeeding!

It is that contradictory of their own directions and what they want from their employees.
I am really surprised and at the same time, disappointed in this company which is furthermore, an MNC.

Secondly, I could not even feel a hint of teamwork here.
When I am sick, there is never coverage; no matter what happens.
The recent issue even proved that significantly.

I wonder what is wrong with the people here
I find it hard to trust anyone here as well; there is so much politics and backstabbing and God-knows-what-else is going on here.

I never wanted to step into any of this; but inevitably, I was pulled into it again and these sadistic people just enjoy seeing/hearing that people are in trouble.
I don't know why they want to mind others' businesses so much; it's like they are minding everyone's business but their own.

I am just here to work; and to do my job and get along with people, but if people continue to be like that, like 'some people say', it's really beyond my control.

What else can I do?
I have already done what I can and that's to my best ability....I am really tired with all these...

I don't think there's anything worth my happiness and health.....

I am a positive person; and I am continuing to look at this positively...taking this as part of my learning, growing up and character molding process....

Do I miss school that much?

I had another dream again last night; I think I have been talking about my dreams most of the time here.

This time, it's not that long but I see a classroom scene.
It's like back in primary school; those old wooden and creaky desks we sit at in the classrooms.

It was arranged in a semi circle; and I was facing some of the guys (my friends).
They were seated with their backs towards the door; and I was blinded by the brightness of the sun outside as I was staring at them.
On the left I could see the old-fashioned green blackboard...call it greenboard (you remember those that we use chalks?)

Funny thing is; I kept seeing this guy (he was one of my admirers) and he kept appearing.
He was very quiet though; and it was like back in school when our friends used to tease us together.
It was very awkward and then he was hesitating whether to talk to me or go to meet me or not.

It was like a swinging situation where he was having his thoughts; and then when he wanted to come to talk to me, something or someone held him back.
He was reminded about his girlfriend and he suddenly looked confused, saying, "I don't have a girlfriend yet!"

He was confused and looked at me; and I was rooted to the ground...

Then when we sat at the semi-circle, he was the guy facing me with the sun blinding my sight again
It was all quiet then it faded...

I am just surprised at how often my dreams have the picture of my old school classrooms in them.
Do I really miss school that much?

Was that a subconscience speaking to me?

I don't know, and I think I still need to sort out all the interpretations for all my dreams...I hope I don't go crazy before that...

Yet another weird dream???

I should have blogged about it immediately when I woke up on Friday morning.

Yeah, I have had yet another weird dream the night before and it was again another bizarre dream in which I was part of it.

I think it involved my high school this time; I could see an access card.
That access card was actually the card which I use for my current condo in Penang to enter the main entrance gate.
I recalled it so clearly from the dream because it was very obvious and evident due to the card size, thickness and the words imprinted on it.

In the dream, it started with me passing the card to my dad; I think…for some reason or another. When I hand him the card, I remembered that I kept emphasizing on how important this card is and the extra precaution he needs to take to take care of it.
I couldn’t remember whether my brother was also in the dream.

I was seen as kept insisting on the importance of the card and how I need it to enter my school gates every morning (I do not know why the school gate?)

My dad nodded and did not say much.

Next I was seen to go to school early every morning; and I think I was back in those old prefect’ blue blouse and navy blue skirt I used to wear and I was walking towards the gate.

Suddenly my dad appeared and showed me the card.

It is now in a deformed shape!

Again, I remembered it clearly because it was so clear and sharp in the dream!

The card actually melted and crumpled from the side corners towards the middle. It’s like it has been burnt or underwent some high temperature oven with a tractor over it.

I remembered I was panicky (again) and was extremely upset over it; and I was crying and arguing with my dad and brother.

I kept saying, “I told you so many times to take good care of it, now it’s ruined!! How could you ruin it??? How am I supposed to go to school from now on??”

My dad was quiet and it was quite blur

Then I cried again and I remembered one of the last sentence I uttered before I woke up, “ If I knew, I would never have given you the card!! Now I even need to pay the fine and be penalized!!”

I was so upset; imagine when you are really furious or disappointed when your favorite possession is ruined by someone else.

I just felt so upset and distressed that I kept crying and arguing and then I stared at the school gates…it seemed so blurred and distant and then, I woke up.

Extremely bizarre, don’t you think?

I will try to decipher my dream too….

(I am wondering the melted/burnt card had anything to do with a honey bottle I accidentally melted on Thursday morning…LOL? Maybe hor?)

Dream of my wedding and my grandma?

I've had another weird dream last night; but it's not a spooky one which is why I have decided to post it here.

It was a long dream; as I remember and I was actually getting married!

I was dressed in a simple white tube dress with a long train; but it was easy for me to walk around.
I remember walking around a lot in the dream!

I was scheduled to have my wedding in this church; but the weird thing is, the church was actually a little chapel which is a shoplot.

The other shops next to it were empty; and I remembered that all the paint were very white.

Then I see a few guys around who were very cheerful and happy; and they were actually my friends who were supposed to help out with the wedding.
Too bad, I couldn't recall their faces...or come to think it, I don't remember anyone particularly familiar, but one thing's for sure, they are all guys.
In fact, I think they are the guys who are supposed to be the groom's brotherhood entourage although they were all helping me.

The groom?
I have no idea...I did not even see him around.

I only remembered that I was not feeling particularly like myself; and that everything seems to be in a hurry
I was not really prepared; and I was dressed really simple!
Nothing like a wedding that I could ever imagine!

I had light make-up on; and my cousin sisters were all standing inside the church
Weird; I did not even have my 'sisterhood' entourage with me!

I was feeling really lost; and I think I felt like I was not really ready for the wedding
I was feeling anxious and wondering why I am getting married so soon (or in such a hurry!)
You see, I didn't even know why I was there

I saw most of my family members looking at me; and waving at me from the church and I was standing outside the church
I felt forlorn and lonely

Then I realized I forgot my shoes....
As I panicked, I saw my brother who told everyone to calm down and asked my dad to go back to the car to get my shoes
Everyone tried to calm me down and told me to wait for the shoes in the church

Unknown to the others, I was trailing behind my brother and my dad; and I saw myself descending a flight of stairs which was carpeted in red and then led to a dark basement carpark

Suddenly, I see light again and I saw my mom at the top of the staircase
She told me to come up and I made my way up again; heaving up my (apparently) light gown and walking barefooted.

As I stood outside the church, feeling lost and miserable again
I thought of how empty the benches are and was thinking, why didn't I invite all my friends and colleagues
There seems to be only close family members and relatives
I felt so lonely; and a bit disappointed that it lacks the merry atmosphere

I wondered why didn't I want to inform other people; they will know eventually anyhow
I felt so afraid of walking down the aisle
I almost felt like I wanted to cancel and be a runaway bride!

Then I was thinking, it's okay, I shall organize another wedding dinner in KL once I am done with this ceremony
(I am guessing I am not even in my own hometown for this wedding?)
I don't even have a bridesmaid....believe it or not!

I panicked when I realized that I don't have a bridesmaid; and looked at my cousin sisters standing inside the church (they were nicely dressed)
I was wondering who to pick as my bridesmaid....but they seemed so far away

Then the piano starts to play inside the church and I know I had to start making my way into the church
I don't even have my veil yet!
I was looking around; and I saw most of the guys were looking at me; sort of eyeing me from top to toe (checking me out with a grin on their face and giving me the thumbs up)

If that was not freaky enough, suddenly I saw my very sick grandma
Yup; the grandma who is currently very very sick (she is my only grandma left anyway)
She was dressed up and had a bit of red lipstick and she looked much younger

She held my shoulder and told me to be calm
I could feel the touch of her hand on my bare shoulder (remember I was wearing a tube dress?)
She said to me these words, "Don't worry, everything will be fine. I am happy that you are finally getting married. I am very very happy now...."

In an instant, I recalled....my sick grandmother is now a great grandmother following my eldest cousin brother's wedding a few years ago; and he has borne two lovely daughters.

Furthermore, recently, my youngest uncle also had his newborn son; adding the heir that grandma so much wanted

My aunt has also said, grandma has already seen her great grandchildren, all her daughters' children (considered external grandchildren in the Chinese family context) and now she has even her own internal grandson (the heir to the family)
She has only yet to see her grandson-in-law...

Is that why I am having this weird dream?

I only know it is very weird, and I think I need some time to sort it out and decipher this dream...

I need to sort out the parts and interpret it in a right sequence....

Other things that I can remember from the dream

The tube dress I was wearing...I think it looked a bit like this

Taken from - http://flypaper.bluefly.com/images/wedding%20gown.gif



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I remembered even my hair was left flowing on my shoulders...yeah, it's not even done!


(From good.designs)

I almost felt like I couldn't wake up from my sleep/dream
I felt like there was a strong force to push me into the aisle
It's like I shouldn't wake up from the dream and that I have to continue to stay in the dream...

Now, how bizarre is that????

Cherish your loved ones

It is funny how negligent people are; and how all of us seem to take things for granted
It's like we take it that things around us are always there for us and part of your daily lives

So not true...

Recently, my granny is very sick and has been in and out of the hospital for countless times; each time looking weaker than the last
She has grown so thin and frail; that I was shocked and I almost couldn't believe that this is my granny
I could not help myself from feeling sad when I see her lying there so helpless on the hospital bed and suffering from the pains while we can just stand by her bed and look on (not able to do anything since we are no professionals)

It was then that I start to recall; how granny was like back in her younger days (during my childhood), when she was so vibrant and healthy
I am not that close to this granny of mine; reason because we stay 300 kilometres away and only visit granny every school holiday
Despite that, granny is still often delighted to see us (what's not, when my mother, her daughter is the only one who stays so far away from her)
She loves to cook and I remember how she often encourages us to stay and eat at home instead of going out for those local Penang hawker food

She starts cooking early in the morning and by 11-11.30am, she would have all the dishes ready on the table (piping hot!) and she would always yell, "Come have your lunch now!"
We were often reprimanded if we were to leave the food go cold and not sit down to eat immediately (no matter how full you are!)

This granny is very superstitious and often tells us the stories of the different deities and the various festive seasons associated with the beliefs
She also often forbids us from doing this or that; stating that it could bring bad luck
Needless to say, she is definitely hard to please especially during Chinese New Year where the rules are to be followed

She really hates dark-colored clothes; especially black and dark-blue
It is a taboo to wear these clothes in her house if you were to visit during Chinese New Year
I remember how she chided one of my aunts for buying a pair of blue suit for Chinese New Year and she forbade her from wearing it
She says that these are colors meant for mourning and it is pure disrespect to the elders if we were to wear it

Even on normal days, she frowns upon wholly black ensemble in her house

She loves bright colors and auspicious words; gold, red
But her favorite color is definitely purple; just like my other late grandmother

She loves to eat; and she would not hesitate to try all sorts of food
However, as she gets older, I still remember her saying that it is okay to steal a bite or two and that it meant no harm, despite all the objections from us and how we deter her from those unhealthy food

Right now, she is so frail and weak and sickly, that I feel so sad when I see her face
At the same time, I know I cannot show my sadness in front of her

All of us have to smile and cheer her up in this times

She is getting weaker by the day; and so far, doctors and even mediums (my aunts sought advice from mediums too) did not give much positive feedback

I suddenly feel worried about the fate of my grandmother..
I know that we are all being prepared mentally by the doctors and the mediums
Yet, it is no easy feat to be prepared and yet have to accept a fate

I do not want to be prepared; no...
But I do pray that she will feel very much better and not in pain or suffering

Granny is starting to mutter weird things to everyone
and she has certainly seemed much more cheerful these days
However, we are still worried

I will continue to pray for her

We should cherish our loved ones at all times and not only when you think they are about to leave
Once they have left us, it will be forever as we won't be able to see them again...
I do miss my grandmother and grandfather who have left me; although I know they are watching over us from Heaven

Never take anyone for granted; even your close friends
You may not be able to rewind the time when you have lost it
Cherish all the time you have with your loved ones..

I know I definitely will...

I used to...

I used to love working so much
I used to look forward to going to work every morning and coming home
I used to enjoy learning new things each day and going through a challenging task
I used to look forward to waking up early each day (even on weekends)
I used to enjoy being so early in the office that I am almost always the first person there (and my car is always in the first spot)
I used to feel tired after work each day and yet feel satisfied over the whole day's work

I used to...

Now...
I don't even feel motivated anymore
I am frustrated with some of the things I am doing
I feel annoyed by uncooperative and cunning people around
I can't wait for the day to end
I looked forward to weekends and wonder why it is so short
I feel exhausted every day and just feel so messed up
I can't wait to get away and run off for vacation

Can you tell me what is wrong with this picture?

I just want to blab some of my thoughts, that's all...now I need to get back to work...

I think I am overworked...I need a vacation...to stay SANE!

I am so tired!

I am really tired of all these lar...
I can't take it anymore

I just feel so sick of everything

I know, there goes another depressing post
I am not depressed
I am just tired...

I just don't feel like myself again

I just want to get out of this!

It's all a mess and the same old stuffs which I can't take anymore....

I want an EXIT!

Regret...

I regret leaving the window open last night when I went to sleep

There must be a light haze in the air as I awoke to such dry throat and lips this morning
I feel all cold outside and inside despite the really hot sun out there today

I should have just kept the darn window shut when I went to bed!

I thought the haze has been defeated by the continuous showers of rain for the past few days...

Apparently, I was wrong...

I think I should continue to keep the window closed until further observation or when I am convinced that the haze is finally gone!

Budget-keeping

I have promised myself that I must keep an eye on my budget and my spending
(Not that I am a big/irrational spender)
I just like to make sure that things are in order

It's weird how your list of things to buy have increased since you have started working and staying out here on your own
At the same time, I am also surprised at how minute the value of our ringgit has gone to when I purchase some simple groceries

A good RM50 note goes off in a blink of an eye; even when you are just buying some simple stuffs like fruits, food, or toiletries

A RM50 notes doesn't seem to be that huge of a value anymore that it really scares me

For that, I have to keep to a strict budget and make sure that I do not overspend

The other danger is the plastic (referring to credit card) which allows you to make transactions of purchases seem so easy and worry-free
Then you just write a cheque to the bank at the end of each month to clear the bills...

All paperless; electronic based and you feel stress-free since you don't see any physical movement of your money to the other party or in any transaction?

Not so, when you take a look at your ATM and noticed that the money is missing...leaving your account balance to an undesirable amount that leaves you longing for the pay day to be here soon...

I do not want to end up in that kind of situation; and I still find myself a pretty disciplined person
I have a really strong will and I can really hold myself from buying something which I really love if I have to...

Fortunately, I am still good to go...and sensible in whatever i spend...

Anyway, a girl's spending is still dangerous whenever it comes to all these sales seasons and it's the Mega or Merdeka Sales season again...

Is it me or does it seem like the warehouse sales and mega sales this year seems to be never-ending?

I must stick to my budget and buy only what I need; and not what I want or must have.....

Worry too much?

I think I worry too much.....sometimes... (or most of the time?)

I worry about almost everything
I can't keep my mind off something when it goes wrong
It will continue nagging me at the back of my mind

It will just make me feel restless and unable to have peace in my mind

It's not healthy, I know but it's just me being me
I can't help it

I know I shouldn't because it may not necessarily be any big thing

Some say I am being overly responsible for all the things I do
and how I have attached myself too much emotionally in my work

perhaps that's true....
I care too much.... about everything
I care too much when there is wrong

Does perfectionism has to do with this too?

I think so too....

Help, what should I do then?
I think I am going dizzy....this issue has been nagging at me for this whole week that I am already at my limits

I realized I have worried too much when finally, today, I have decided not to back down anymore and strike back

I am tired of being always the one to step back
I need to defend

I need a BREAK......
I want my vacation!

10 things to know about me

1. I HATE smokers; especially those inconsiderate ones (and of course, I don't really like gamblers and drinkers as well)

2. I LOVE the Rain (that's a known fact for sure :)

3. I wanted to be a doctor/dentist when I was a kid

4. I am a very LOYAL person; and I can really be attached to friends, families and even places which I love

5. There's not a lot of local fruits that I really like; seriously! I like fruits like oranges, kiwis, berries (all of em), cherries, pears, peaches, grapes...so there :)

6. I LOVE to write and READ (enough said)

7. I am a worrywart (self-confession)

8. I HATE LIARS!

9. I TRUST in GOD very much; and I am very proud of my faith (I am a Catholic)

10. I DON'T DRINK beer or hard liquor (Don't ask WHY! Period)

My Favorite Things

There's been too many depressing posts lately; and I do not like the negativity itself.

All of a sudden, I am reminded by this song which I used to love from my all-time favorite musical, The Sound of Music.

It is sung by Julie Andrews (The Golden Voice of the Century); who sang My Favorite Things.
She said to the children, "When I feel sad, I think of My Favorite Things"

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels
Doorbells and sleighbells
And schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winter that melts into spring
These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don't feel...so bad


So, I should also try to remember my favorite things, to cheer myself up....

Now what are my favorite things?

1. BOOKS!!! I love my books, they are my best soulmates
2. RAIN!
3. MICKEY MOUSE!
4. My car
5. PINK!
6. My laptop
7. Gilmore Girls - they are my dose of laughter!
8. My playlist on iTunes
9. My BLOGS....need I say more?
10. My instrumental/classical music
11. ORCHESTRA
12. Piano
13. Violin
14. My ROOM
15. My Crystals
16. My Pillow
17. My Shoes
18. My bags
19. My dresses
20. My phone!! - can't live without it
21. My CDs and DVDs
22. My Fair Princess
23. Coup De Couer
24. Shopping
25. Sunflowers!
26. Snowglobes
27. Presents
28. Watches
29. Oranges
30. Australia pears (they are the best, and they seem to have vanished from the face of earth?)
31. Kiwis
32. Fish
33. Horses
34. Heritage places
35. Antiques
36. Earrings
37. Winnie the Pooh
38. DISNEY cartoons (my favorites: Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Beauty & the Beast, Little Mermaid)
39. Soft Toys
40. Honey
41. White Dresses
42. White Shoes (white everything)
43. Beach
44. Lakeside
45. A White house
46. Cottages
47. Ferrari
48. Church
49. My Family
50. God
51. Vineyards
52. Wine Glasses clinking at each other
53. Pouring of champagne over the nicely stacked glasses and toasting!
54. Duets
55. Waltz!
56. Sounds of rain pattering on the roof
57. Rainbow
58. Dressing up for an occasion
59. Owning my own house and deciding on the deco and reno!
60. Curling on the bed with my book and Mickey when it's raining
61. Airports and airplanes
62. Gushing water from waterfall

I should stop here or I could go on and on, it gets me excited.
They are all in no particular order; and don't mistake that I care about my family and God the least, because that's not true...

I am enjoying this.... *smiles*

Rainy comfort

I love the rain; I really do...
These two days have been raining for the whole day...

Typically I would rejoice and clap my hands, shouting in glee
But these two days, I have been bogged down by my work anxieties and worries that I didn't even feel so happy about the rain; though sometimes I do feel comforted that God is trying to cheer me up as well.

At the same time, I also felt reminded of my big storm that I am going through at the moment and I felt down with the weather as well...

I am confused right?

Should I feel happy or should I sigh along with the rain?
I know I should choose the happy note, but as long as my issue is not over, I can't truly be all happy yet....

Please speed UP!!!

I am not talking about the broadband; nor the connection

I am referring to the time remaining to close my issue
Things are moving rather slow because I had to wait for the feedback from the customer
I can't wait because all sorts of possibilities are running through my head and I am gearing myself up for all the arguments needed and all the things I may need to belt out during the upcoming discussion

I can't wait...I am anxious!
I want things to be all closed...so that my mind can finally rest
I cannot rest or be at peace without getting the answer

I do pray that things go smoothly and there is no major hiccups so that we don't have to go to the argument stage
I really want to settle this peacefully; please?

Only my data is needed?

I received an email from my boss yesterday as I was approaching the end of my working hours
(My boss sits in KL; operating from the HQ)

His request was very simple; asking me to consolidate the data for the reporting of last quarter's results and inclusive of year-to-date and also, to forecast up to September (which is the end of the fiscal year in my company)

Surprisingly, the email was only to me and my other colleague; the one who was constantly MIA was in the CC loop along with my admin and two other managers.

Initially, I was definitely wondering, why only me?
Why do I need to be the only one to consolidate?
Why does that colleague get away everytime?

But I thought again; and I think I know why
I look at the positive side and I think it looks better

Maybe I am the only one with data, after all? Hahaha...
And maybe, it doesn't really matter whether he has data or not? =P

Furthermore, he is in CC loop and I am sure he will definitely say that he is not supposed to do anything since he is in CC loop

This is one person that thinks CC and To are always the same; because even when the email is really addressed TO him, he still ignores....
So I guess, nobody wants to waste time asking him to do anything, perhaps

Now, doesn't things look much better? :D

P.S.: I am not being mean...it IS the truth!

Taking it all in a stride

Things keep happening to me recently especially at work
Then I am worried about my poor old grandmother who is severely ill; something which the whole family is helpless about as we cannot do much to rectify the situation

At work, I am thrown into a huge cauldron of fire and I have to swim my way out by myself
(refer to my primary Angelstar Blog Haven blog for the story)

I am all alone these days; I feel so alone although I know I am not alone as besides Almighty Father and all the beautiful angels and saints around me, I still have my family and good/best friends who are all supporting me in one way or another, telling me not to give up

I cannot be with them physically but I can sense their concern and their worries about me, and I know they are all praying for my well-being

I feel touched and do not worry as I did not lose hope or the grip on myself

When times are tough, the tough gets going
It is not like some people say, "It cannot be helped"
Oh yes, things can be helped

We are in control of the situation
Things happen, so what
We can't let the effects control our minds and limbs and not do anything about it

We need to do something about it
Even if we need to be in sweat and tears
But as long as we tried our best, who is there to stand there and judge us?

Perhaps it's my faith, and my never-giving up attitude or maybe it's even my experiences so far which has certainly helped to mould my mindset and my character along the way to make me a stronger person like who I am today

Unfortunate things do happen sometimes; or for some, all the time but yet, there is always a fortune out of it
God is fair and merciful

There is always a silver lining beneath every cloud
And for me, the silver lining is to learn to be independent and to be stronger/mature and I truly appreciate the people around me even more

I thank God for all the lovely blessings besides the unfortunate luck at the moment

When we are depressed over things which happened in an untimely manner, think of those who are in even worse state than us; those who are constantly depressed over a roof over their heads, food for their stomach and the fates of their surviving family members.

When I think of all these, I pray for them and thank God for the blessings bestowed upon me

Don't you think that we have a lot to thank for?
So, I will not let myself in despair...I must stand up on my own
I must pick up
I must work it all out

In all, I must take everything in a stride and hold my head up!

Thanks for all the encouragement!~

Welcoming new little cousin!

A recent addition to my maternal family is the adorable little cousin who was born to my youngest uncle four months ago.
He is such a joyful baby; who could not stop smiling at everyone and that immediately put him on the top of the popularity list

SO CUTE! who could resist this little baby; with his tiny fingers and toes and who is still wondering why he cannot crawl yet.

He loves to bow down and put his head down to to sniff at the mattress in front of him, which just tickles everyone to laughter

It is a lovely and joyous creation of God; amazing and miraculous at the same time at how helpless a newborn is and yet we grow into thinking and sensible adults; shouldering responsibilities along the way, and yet, when we grow old, we are yet again helpless and dependent before we are sent back to God himself...

It is truly an amazing journey; and how God had drawn our pictures even before we are born

~Live your life to the fullest that when you were born, you were the only one crying and everyone around you is smiling and when you leave the world, you are the one smiling while everyone around you is crying~
I really love this quote

To baby cousin, may you grow up to be a good, smart, responsible and sensible man who will be the future pillar of the nation!
Adorable....