Faces....

Now I start to see the different faces of people; how people changed and the total conversion from their attitude.

I am not kidding; people change as easily as the wind, and now, I do think they dislike me of certain reasons which are unknown to me although I have a clear idea of what is going on since it was started off by a lady whom I would say is tad a bit vicious and insecure in her current position and wants to create havoc by forming her own clique whom she can conform to and paralyze the root of the tree. Yeah, never mind if you don't understand it; it's supposed to be encoded anyway since I am speaking on high level terms.

The thing is this is causing a rift among the members on the boat; with the number of people sitting on certain sides of the boat and with the new joining members. Of course, the captain of the boat will always be there and the opposition is always thinking of tricks up their sleeves to foil the captain. So, this lady pirate has slowly clinched some of the other boat members; one consisting of a lady whom I trusted and everyone perceive as an innocent and nice lady (I have my doubts...and I am not saying out of spite) and the other is supposed to be a person who was to be my guide in the boat.

So, I am in a difficult situation and I believe they know that. They are starting to make their plan work by only talking among themselves and showing everyone that they are within their own world - such nasty people I should say. HAVE you people ever considered other people's feelings? Yeah, be grand and mighty all you like, continue to ignore others and envy successes but at the end of the day, the captain will still be the one to determine your indication of success.

What have I done wrong? They think I am not doing anything while they are hogging all the development work,etc and me, I am shaking my legs all day long on the boat? Yeahhhh, why don't we switch and you tell me whether you can do my stuffs. I know, since day one, my mentor warned me of this situation which will eventually occur as people grow jealous of the popularity and influence we start to have; and in my position, I am highly visible and known to most of the top level management and I managed to impress most of them - although people on my boat seem to think otherwise.

You know, I thought I was being sensitive that these people are launching some sort of underground attacks but turns out, these people are super mean and visible to show you that they are ignoring people whom they disregard as their clique. I hate and seriously despise people with that insight who enjoys making others' lives miserable. Have you morons ever thought of how it feels when you are treated the same way in return?

Yeah...look at me...I am using "morons" to address people and this used to be such a taboo for a name to be spoken. I am also tired and exhausted with the inconsiderate behaviour displayed by these people and I am sure they are enjoying it, feeling that they have the command of authority over people's feelings.

I am disappointed and tired
I am no longer going to try to make them happy
I will not be affected by them
I will not succumb to their desire to make me feel down
I will not let them succeed

Guess it's time to react; I am not a little kitten to be trampled on and if you think you are great, prove it to me so that I will respect you. But, from my point of view and based on the current situation, all I can say is I have totally lost every bit of respect for any of you morons and I believe that whatever you do to others today will come back to you - yeah, what goes around comes around -- so I hope you enjoy making others' lives miserable......