St Anne's with my family

In conjunction with the holy and joyous feast day of Mother St Anne, my family made a short trip up north and joined me in the famous patron saint's church in Bukit Mertajam.
As usual, it was packed and this round, we arrived in the afternoon; compared to our morning or late evenings' trips which is much cooler.

Most of the pilgrims from other states were already leaving; therefore the crowd is not a problem anymore.
Pedlars are also out there, as usual, selling merchandise items, making a fortune for themselves.
It became like a pasar malam environment outside the church's compound, and it was insane as some were selling Hindu merchandise items!
Well, this shows how popular this St Anne's church is among non-Catholics as people of different faith flock to pray to her.


Technically, Catholics do no pray TO St Anne; instead, we pray through her, as with all other saints.

We ask these saints to intercede in our prayers to God, and ask for their help to pray for us.

That is why in our faith, we have so many saints and angels whom we display in the church and the buildings.
They are our patrons; and our intermediaries to God.



I love coming for St Anne's feast; maybe because I love this church?
It just feels so serene and put my mind at ease (never mind the hot sun and the crowds)

Most importantly, I was really happy to meet my family again! This year, even my cousin brother is here in Penang to join us on this pilgrimage:)


Happy St Anne's Feast; may you be blessed with the grace and happiness:)

Sick and Tired

I have complained so much recently on my blogs
They seem to emit so much of negativity

I don't even like it myself

I feel so sick and tired lately

Everything seems to go wrong

I want to resume to my positive voices

It's really depressing when I feel depressed
I don't want to!!

Yet at the same time, circumstances push me to the negative edge
It's just so frustrating

I shall not let myself be controlled by them anymore
I must regain my energy and fight back!

Ergo again?

My hand hurts again; that same annoying sensation which seeped through the nerves and the skin

It's starting to give me that pain...

I think it's due to the hectic schedule I've had this week

I worked too much???

A Place of my own

I need a place of my own...

I really want it....

It's a big sacrifice and commitment I know

But I want it and I am looking...

It will take some time, I know that too....

But it will be perfect and wonderful when that happens

When I have that place where I call my own....*smiles*

Restless and dreams

I was restless again last night....I wonder why
(Maybe it had something to do with the phone call yesterday?)

I thought I put that out of my mind and told myself not to worry/think about it?
Turns out that I can't huh....
I can't control it....it's just the nature of me being a worry-wart I guesss

To top it all off, I even had a bizarre dream

I was confused about the date of my friend's upcoming wedding where I was supposed to one of the bridesmaids and the commentator at the church

I dreamt that I forgot about the date and I was rushing all the way

I was so confused and I think I missed it...

GOSH!!!

That'd never happen, NO, it will NOT

I think I am going bonkers soon....how come there is so many inner thoughts that is bugging my mind that I didn't know?

Which road to take?

As I was seriously considering an option, I am thrown into another dilemma when I was asked to decide

It is something which I foresee will come and yet it came earlier than expected

It is a decision that I must and have to make
I am expected to provide the answer, and yet I can't decide yet

I need to consider everything at the moment

I am once again at a fork; which I need to decide what to do next..

I need to pray for guidance now...

You'll never appreciate

Funny how when things are there
We never know how to appreciate it

But when it is gone, that's when we cry out loud

When we want to leave, we are obstinate
But when you realized that the road in front is not the road you want to use
You are stuck there
Wondering whether you should turn back or should you try a different fork to a different destination

It is always good to be in a familiar environment
It reminds you of home
And most of us are afraid to take risks
Especially when you can't even see what is in front of you
And what it has in store for you

For that reason, we are always stuck in a limbo
Wondering and wondering
Why do we always wonder?

Why did we not learn to appreciate?

But then again, if we never let go, we will never move ahead...
If we always stay with one, we will never know the millions out there

Life is full of questions, isn't it?
Then again, what is life without questions?