The Road NOT taken

Sometimes, on those quiet and peaceful days when I just enjoy sitting there relaxing, reading and as I stare far away into the space, pondering

These are the times that made me recall the things that I have wanted to do at one time, the chances I have passed, the dreams that I have dreamt, and you know what I mean by now.

That was when I remembered how at one point, I had these two huge ambitions and how I was so focused on my vision towards that direction
I was so intent on achieving that vision that it was all that's on my mind.
I am one determined person; and end up, funnily, I didn't end up doing either.
In fact, I even secretly harbored a really strong dream on one of my strongest interests and passions.

I ended up being something that out of the blue; if you were to ask me ten years ago whether I'd see myself in where I am standing today; I would definitely say, "Hell, NO!"
But that's where I am now, in all the fields that I'd never imagined I would be in those early years.

I had wanted to do things that are really interesting; something that can't be seen from my physical outlook, haha.

Had I persisted and at least had gone for one of my dreams, what would I be today?
I would not have known my current colleagues and friends, that's for sure

I would not have known what I've learnt through my last few years of working in the great multinational corporation
And I'd probably be leading a very very very busy life right now
Rushing down the white halls
Or probably having my nose inside those really thick papers and reference books and preparing my speeches, walking around the office and getting my assistants ready with their research for the presentation

Or spending lots of time in front of the computer, typing away or traveling here and there, to capture things that I'd want to be putting it in words soon for print

Or being a really busy person who just does what she loves

Ahhhh....such great visions and I still have those dreams; especially that particular place that I had always wanted to be in
The three great choices, which I am sure I will make it one day

And then the place that I'd love to see myself serving

The Road not taken is already in the past, but I can still make it to the Road
And not call it not taken anymore

I will still make at least one of the dreams come true
I am very confident that I can...

I shall create my own path to my vision!

When it's dark

I've had these crazy and bugging feeling when it gets dark
I tried to concentrate and focus
I prayed

Was it really my own fear that's scaring myself
God is there with me
I know that
But yet, sometimes, scary thoughts run across the mind

I think the silence is morbidly oppressing..
That's it...
That must be the reason

Now, I shall get back to my book
There is no sound nor wind..

Passion..is something we live for or work for?

I've lived my whole life believing the passion is what that drives us forward
At the same time, it beats me how people around are often talking about passion and yet they are complaining about their job or the things they do daily

It used to get me bewildered but somehow, I guess I find myself probably and slowly sucked into the same reality
My passion?
Can we defeat the reality?

Passion is something I used to live for
And my passion is still alive in me
I do not want it to die

And I must find my way around

My choice would definitely be to live for my passion!

UGH!

I feel bloated lar, I don't know why...

Drank too much water?
I just feel so annoyed, irritated, agitated, infuriated, bla bla...bluek

Besides that, I am being pestered by people around me
Just when I was looking forward to the rainbow after rain

And to top it all off, there is not even a drop of rain today...
Please give me the happiness-bringing rain...

Perhaps that will wipe off those annoyances and put a smile on my face...yeay?

Bittersweet

I've just had the most lovely weekend ever, and I must say that I am starting to miss all my friends.
It was such a wonderful hanging out with them; despite the exhausting day we've all had.

Back to reality, when you are still in dreamland, there seems to be people and things which will just hit you on the head that says, "Knock knock!" and you're just thrown back into the harsh and cold pavement where you realized that your feet is bare and it's just so cold.

You're struggling on your toes to get to where the warm shoes are, only to realize that you need to make an extra mile to walk to the shoes.
When you finally found your shoes, you snuggle comfortably into it, glad for the extra material which made your feet warm and protect it against the bitter cold of the floor.

When you were so happy with yourself for making it to the shoes which you consider as an accomplishment, then you saw another guy thrown into the black hole with you and lo behold! He gets the shoes immediately and even socks and everything that he needs to keep him warm.

It seems unfair, doesn't it?

Some people will always have everything that goes their way and some of us just have to work our way up.
Nevertheless, in this trying times, I am comforted by the presence of loved ones and friends who will always stay true.
Whether near or far, I know they are always there with me and I thank you for this tremendous support I have felt this far.

Life is always a bittersweet experience; we can never expect everything to be sweet
Just like a pot of honey, sometimes it can turn bad too, can't it?

Just like that, bittersweet
And that, in turn, will make us appreciate the sweet times more =)