Realize

Takes time to realize....

The opening line from Colbie Caillat's song just caught itself in my mind; playing again and again and it just made me realize, that time has flown past me and it seems like yesterday that when everything just started.

Haha...realize, and finally it dawned upon me
From a kid who aims at getting 100% in all her test papers to getting perfect scores in all her spelling/dictation tests and being the top of the class to an ordinary girl who wanted to top herself among the country's top students who came to a private university to study and found herself banging her head on the wall and wondering why she took the course but then started to enjoy and being positive and then having so much fun at convo and now, she's all ready to go out into the working world.
Oh, was that 3-4 years ago?

Looking back, it seems like some life I've been through...and people think I'm doing great and all, but the truth, I am just an ordinary everyday and next-door type of gal like any of you out there.
I have 2 eyes, 2 ears, a nose and a mouth, and a mass of hair on top of my head, two hands/arms, a pair of feet....and my height may be a little lower than average though:p

Realize...
I realized that I've gone through my childhood...(After all, I am an adult now, right?)

Primary School:
All those coloring pencils, crayons, water colors, brushes, 2B Staedtler pencils, collection of erasers, ohhhh....and those colored ice-cream sticks we used to collect during those school days....

Secondary School:
Prefectorial Board, St John Ambulance, English Society, Art Club, History Society, Photography Club....PMR, SPM.....Science classes....they've all been such wonderful memories. Responsibilites and part and parcel of being aware of your surroundings start from here

University:
Independence starts here....being out on your own...learning to do your own laundry, cleaning up your room weekly, changing your bedsheets, getting your own meals, etc.
I have also enjoyed being a DJ here...and meeting even more new people...and oh, I have organized my own prom night before for my faculty, the first time ever and I threw in a rather retro theme too....what's the theme I gave now...oh yeah, it was 'Retro Romance and Funkadelic Love'
(now who would give such a name for a prom theme, right?)
But there goes, crazy me...probably not a very successful one but I had to work with my own bare hands and the part about getting sponsors...boy, that was depressing but then again, looking at the positive side, it was a pretty enriching experience for me!~
I was even English Slot DJ manager and I've won an award in the DJ competition, oh yes I did, and I've tried going on live and being broadcasted to a bunch of newly recruited deejay-wannabes in the hall where they get to hear me talk about a bunch of nonsense.
But then again, yours truly did win something after all...haha, the most informative DJ...and popularity was nowhere in a far distance anymore.
I have gone through a week of not sleeping for my very first programming assignment and it was horrifying (i sleep at 9-10 most of the time...so this was definitely a torture for me!~)
I've gone through an internship in a huge Norwegian shipping company and enjoyed those days.

My first job:
I landed my first job in a company that made everyone go 'WOW' when they heard where I was working. In fact, I felt very happy that I got myself in there despite the constant rumors that it was some kind of pressure cooker....
But I still enjoyed it...

Today...
I just realized that it's been a really really long journey but that's made me who I am...

Anything else I realized?
Oh yeah...lots more....
1. I don't look forward to my birthdays anymore (and I used to wonder why people don't) for the fact that I am getting older...hahaha, girls never did like to be reminded of their age...
But then again, to think positive, I should be glad that I am getting older....coz everyone can be young but not everyone gets to be older...life is short!~
2. I don't depend on dad for financial support anymore...oh yea...I am financially independent...
3. I no longer tie my hair with cute little ribbons or funky hair bands anymore....although I still like matching my hair accessories or my bags, shoes with my clothes
4. I thought I didn't like frilly frocks but now, I love all sorts of dresses!~
Guess a girl will always be a girl:)
5. I drive now...haha, oh girl, that's definitely the fun part...I drive!~
6. I can't think of much but I do know there's a very very long list out there....and oh ya...also the fact that I own more than 5 blogs (crazy me) and still enjoying the expansion of more blogs...and I still have fun maintaining them!~

Realize...what have you realized so far?

A Rose among the Thorns

Sometimes it's not easy being a working lady in that world of men...
To strive for the best, you need to work your way to the top and work hard you have to
Much as we strive for equal rights, there are still people out there who just stereotype you because of your gender

I do not care what you think because I will get what I want
Guys do not dominate the society anymore
We have our own minds now too....
We were once deprived of our education but not today
We will show you who wears the pants now!~

Ladies, if you happen to be surviving in a world where everyone around you at work is a male, fret not because being one who wears the skirt doesn't mean we can't do our work
We will show them how we use our brains
And no lady is dumb; so stop calling pretty/blondes, or any lady dumb!~

Little Fashionista

For a moment, I was stunned
"You're not gonna make me carry this bag on my business trip to the airport, right?"

He nods, tilting his head to the side
"It's a small enough bag and it looks nice enough for you"

But....but.....but, it's.....not trendy!~
I managed to stammer out; trying my best not to hurt his nice intentions; but there goes, damage done.
(I gotta be honest, don't I?)

Trendy? It's just a bag; and you're just there for like 2-3 days!~

Ermmmm......I know it's no LV, Prada, Gucci...but is there anything better? Or can you get me anything with wheels?

Huh...okay, here's another one...small enough for business trip and just the type with wheels..

It's black....do you have anything in bright colors; pink or red?
(Doe-eyed and wide with desperation; slightly arched eyebrows and pleading voice)

PINK???(like that's a horrendous word!)
I'm a guy...and black is the versatile color...everyone carries a black bag...isn't that trendy enough?
(DUHHHHH.....That's why it's so not COOL when you're carrying the same colored bag; like you came out of a factory or a tour group or something!)

SIGHS....
Seriously, that was just a re-enactment of my recent episode on getting a small luggage bag for business trip.
I guess being a girl, we are always being fussy and insists on looking cool and fashionable; besides being trendy. (or is it just me being overly fussy?)

I do not know since when or how it started; but I have been really particular about stuffs I have or wear...haha, being a little miss perfectionist, I just want to look good.
And what's wrong with having a cute and nice little bag which will follow on your heels at the airport which will make you look all the more cooler?
(I don't intend to turn heads; but I just like to look really nice - self-satisfaction or self-centered?:p)

Anyway, I am working on my own little female zine and it's gonna include fashion...I am gonna be my own fashion writer soon...hehe, but only from my own point of view anyway (disclaimer), so maybe, that's the contributing factor to my recent keen attitude to being trendy?
Yeah...that must be it....(*smiles*)

For the past 6 months...

Let me review what has been going for the past few months...hmmmm, it's not exactly a short period of time but neither has it been too long but why does it feel like ages?
Anyway, I believe that I am on my path to the fullest of my life and I am determined to make sure that it is!

Now, let's see...what did I do in these significant few months
1. Made a move; a rather difficult decision but hopped from one ark to another
2. Received excellent appraisals from all my bosses
3. Accepted an assignment which required relocation
4. Believed in the theory of working harder when you think you've worked hard enough (courtesy of Ernie Chen's theory)
5. Felt inspired by Ernie Chen
6. Changed my longtime hairstyle
7. Spent more $$$ (this is not a very proud thing)
8. Traveled to Europe! (Weeehaaaa!! but the culture was not as great as I had expected though - maybe it's just unique)
9. Expanded my blog's network
10. Expanded my facebook's networking circle
11. Worked towards the first step to create my own website
12. Start to take an interest in politics (hahaha....I used to dislike politics; rather sensitive issues but I am rather intrigued by the stories circulating the headlines these days although I am also not really that encouraged by them:p)
13. Enjoy driving on the road - it is always a pleasure to drive, so why rush when you are not in a hurry? Besides, it's really a nice moment when you give way to another driver
14. Flew on a one-day business trip to Bangkok just merely for a presentation - now I know how corporate travel is like and how it feels to be a frequent business traveler...not so fun!
15. Signed up for an expensive deal which I will never do before this
16. Speak up my mind!
17. Met with some corporate top shots...
18. Presented to an audience like a pro!
19. Mimicked Zig Ziglar and started to like him
20. Adopted an online puppy:)
21. Worked on my female zine!

Gosh...I can't believe I have done that much....I believe that's not all and I am determined to do more.
With hard work and determination, that's where it will bring to much greater heights...

And I have the great LORD and my ever understanding family and friends to thank for:)