Happy Chinese New RABBIT Year!!~

Wishing all the fans and readers of DPCS Princess Diary a very prosperous and joyful Chinese New Year with lots of LEAPS and BOUNDS! =)

Have a hoppity Rabbit YEAR! =)

GONG HEI FATT CHOY!~

What I want to do...

Sometimes, I do ask myself this question, what do I really want out of my own life, and what do I want to do?

I am passionate about a lot of things, and yet, if you were to ask me, what do I really really WANT most out of all my favorites, I realized there is only one answer.

I LOVE writing as much as I love reading.
Words and speech, they are practically my soul and life.

I love how words can describe so many things (maybe not everything) and how one's emotions can be told through different types of words.
I love how words can be weaved together to tell a story, or to represent a person's tale which can be strung together to be a life story.

I love how words can make people feel better/worse with immediate effect.
Words are indeed powerful tools, and look at how it has gotten people around the world in connection with each other.

Put them together, and you have another term, COMMUNICATION.
It is a term known to everyone but yet at the same time, neglected at times too.

People pursuing fields in communication are rarely viewed as holding important careers compared to doctors, lawyers, engineers, etc.
However, how true is that?
Communication is the key to everything, how else could one succeed in life without communication?

I love to communicate; be it through writing or through speech, although I do prefer the former, I could just let myself freely when I am with my pen.

I have been writing since young; in fact, I found my love in writing at a tender age of five.
After reading my story books, I always felt compelled to spin a story of my own and hope to get it published.

I have written short stories, and documentary articles, and I have won essay competitions (one even got me a trip to USA for the first time)
Slowly, I even start to develop the inspiration for poetry, but I dare not compare myself to great poets out there as I am just an amateur when it comes to poetry.
Poetry is a beautiful art, it paints words and presents it in a different way/language altogether which just sounds like a song to one's ears.

As I look back at how I have traveled so far; from short stories to essays to documentary articles, to dramatic stories, to poetries and blogs and even reviews, I am happy to say that I have learnt along the way.

One dream I still harbour to this day is; to publish my very own book.
I don't intend to turn into Enid Blyton or JK Rowling or any famous authors for that sake, but just suffice to make myself happy that I have my books published and I can share my stories with everyone (if I do get famous, I thank the Lord and people who love my stories!)

I am working towards that dream, and I thank those of you who have been encouraging me through your great words, they do help a lot!

I welcome feedback, and if you are looking for someone to write for you, I am ready to be hired too *winks*

A BRAND NEW Year

It's been a year and can't believe we are welcoming yet another year again!
(I have a nagging feeling that I am getting old as well..LOL)

Looking positively, it is not all about aging in the numbers but rather, the experiences and knowledge gained through the years and how we have come to be a better person today.

2010 is over and 2011 is here for us to look forward to and to anticipate more good things and experiences to strengthen our life journey.

I will be posting in my new blog on my life journey as well, and will be updating this blog from time to time, as I do miss this blog and all my readers.

Thanks for all the support, and I look forward to more interesting stories to share in this blog too~

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 to everyone!~

Missing my blog?

Despite having moved to a new blog, I have also received requests to maintain at least this blog because somehow, I didn't even know I have the huge fan base here!

Thank you very much for all your support and I can tell you that I am truly touched that there are people who are just so into this blog just by following it.

Well, I will still continue to update this blog periodically, or whenever I found something interesting to update on as I am currently working on some other new blogs and websites which are enough to keep me more than just busy.

I will make it a rule to update this a few times a week if my other engagements are not keeping me too busy!

Again, thanks for all the support and no worries, this blog will be back to life soon;)

New Blog

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I Have NEWSSSS!!~

I have newssss and a BIG ONE too....
It's a GOOD one, something everyone has been waiting for...ehehehe

and I am still thinking how to spill it out...it's a long list =)

It's my good newsssss......stay tune, I will get to you soon, and if I don't, drop me a note here, kay?

Hugs and kisses :-*

Holidays and vacation

~Hooray hooray, it's a holi-holi DAY!!~

Counting down again, and I am finally on leave....seems like forever since the last time I took leave, LOL!

Happy Holidays to me, and I can't wait for my long-awaited and very much deserving break, away away....

I am in a holiday mood now....and I am still finalizing my packing.
Can you believe it, I told myself to start packing two months earlier and then it was one month and then yeah, one day!
I have got to learn something from my travel packing habits, as in early packing and definitely, PACK LIGHT!

That's why I am 'final-izing' my packing...that's crazy, about to heave everything into the overnight bag soon!

Anyway, stress no more soon....because it's a HOLI-HOLI- DAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!~

Nice view

This is the view I can see from my living hall


Beautiful and cute, ain't it? (not those people in it though, they tried to climb onto the kiddie's slides....so immature and these are all grown people!

Insomnia

I have been having insomnia lately; I don't know and it's really annoying me.

It's frustrating not being able to sleep, especially for people like me, who has a sleep schedule and proper bedtimes.
I am a very disciplined person when it comes to going to bed on time, having meals on time (if I can help it now) and waking up early (I love waking up early)

Recently, however, I find it hard to go to sleep despite being tired and sleepy that it gets really exhausting.

I hope I can get my sleep really soon....it's really tiresome not to mention deteriorating to the health when we don't get our sleep.

I may try some herbal remedies or any old wives' advice that is not too gross to help me sleep.

Home Sick!

This always happens, every time I go home for the weekend or a break and when I come back or on the way back, I just feel so home sick.

I just missed home so much, I could not bear looking at Mum and Dad when my car pulls away or when I step into the departure hall in the airport.
Those farewell hugs I give my family, just makes my heart feel really really heavy when I turn away.

I try not to look, but I am sure I saw tears in Mummy's eyes as well.

I sound like a pathetic baby, don't I, whining after Mummy and Daddy and I am supposed to be all grown up and independent.
I am working outside and staying alone out there, for goodness sake, all away from my family.
Some may say that it is a choice, we made a choice and we should not be crying over it.
I made this choice, it is true, but that does not mean I am ready to slash the ties and turn cold-blooded with no more sentiments for my own family and home.

I guess it's true, some ties just can never be broken....parents will continue to see their grown up children as still kids while we, grown up kids will always see home as HOME and FAMILY...

Oh, I do get over it, after a day or two...Home is still the best place to be =)

What I am reading...

This is what I am currently reading....

Can you believe I actually read something like this? =)
Yeah, I do....

My poor poor laptop

The laptop which I have been using for my personal use has just went bozo; the screen kept flickering, slowly to drastic flickers that I almost thought I needed the attention of an opthalmologist!

Anyway, I finally decided to send it off for repair and I sure do miss my lappie!


Now I wonder, how come my old horse work laptop does not give me such problems to justify for an immediate change of laptop for work from the IT department?

Why oh why, sighs!

I wonder whether I did something to make the screens on my own laptop go flicker flicker; maybe something which I can simulate to make the work laptop go bicker bicker as well?

Ssssssshhhhhhh.....it should not be heard by some relevant authorities =P

My New Sleeping Friend

A fortnight ago, the crazy MEGA sale started its spell all over the country and of course, screaming and shouting for the sake of the upcoming Independence Day as well (we call it Merdeka, which means Independence in the Malay Language)

Merdeka Sale here, Merdeka sale there and all of a sudden, everywhere is on SALE.

Dear saw something at Jusco which he wanted to get me for a while ago but I thought it was a little expensive.
Well, since it was on sale, he decided to get it for me, despite my protests and here it is, my new Memory Pillow


It was supposed to help me sleep better, and for a better posture, not to mention proper blood circulation and it was like on 20 or 40% off the normal price.
Akemi is also a pretty well renowned brand in bedding stuffs.

I was excited to get my hands on it, I mean, my head on it.

The thing about memory pillow is that it 'remembers' the position of your head when you lay on it and it keeps it that way.
Therefore, it will maximize your comfort when you sleep and contours your position and back to avoid all those headaches, tensions or backaches, and shoulder aches.
Pretty cool, huh?

Therefore, that first night, I pushed my favorite and good old 100% stuffed cotton pillow to the side, and put this in place to sleep.
The old pillow became some sort of my arm rest which I left by the side.

Okay, first impression when I laid my head on it, "Hmmmm, hard"

Secondly, I felt that my body was slightly elevated due to the hard and height of the pillow.

I tried to sleep, but I felt like I was sleeping on those ancient days' pillow; you know, the one made of marble and shaped like a box, like what you would see in the TVB's A Pillow Case of Mystery?


I told myself that I just need to adjust to it, it is after all new, and I have had gotten used to my old pillow, for like, how many years?

After one week, even Dear commented that the pillow was slightly hard (he got one himself too!)

I secretly tried to swap the pillow with my old one one night, when I felt a little frustrated trying to get to sleep and then I looked at the memory pillow as it lay on the side, and I felt guilty.
How could I leave an expensive pillow by the side, while I sleep on a pillow half of its price?
It doesn't do justice to the pillow, right?

So, yeah, I got stuck to this pillow now and no matter what Dear says, I just won't swap it because it is really not justifiable =P

I think I am starting to get used to the pillow, maybe I will bring it for traveling in the future too, LOL!
I will tell you about the health benefits after I get even more comfortable with it...

Me miss me bookssss

Due to the recent shifting from my old place to this new place I am currently staying in, I had to move at least 50% of my stuffs home (Home as in KL; where the permanent address is at)

The largest chunk (and the heaviest) of them all which had to first make the move was my collection of my books which made it to more than 6 boxes; let me think......... I think it was a total of 6-9 small boxes and 3 big boxes.

Gosh, isn't it amazing how many books I have collected over just a two-year stay since I came back to Penang?

I packed all of them with a heavy heart and sent them home in the car; which was packed with other stuffs as well (I suspect my thermometer was in there too!).

I made a mistake, and it was silly of me to just bring back two books, with the thought that I will just get a few more or exchange these books when I fly home on business trips.

Boy, I finished those two books in less than a week and I am without anything to read anymore.

Forlorn and sad, I thought that I should go get some books from the bookstore but then again, wouldn't that result in another round of shifting the next time since this is also another temporary place?

I ended up in the library; yeah, the state library.
(Yes, I still go to the libraries even after I have left school and university, in case you're wondering)

I renewed my membership and paid RM2 for the card; actually I renewed both cards (mine and dear's) as I am carrying both of them.

Well, one card is only entitled to two books and those of you who know me, well, I need these two cards!!

I am back with the books, and I hope it will take me some time to finish reading most of the books in the library although I have also started checking out books on the shelves of the bookstores and gosh, there are so many titles which I would really want, seriously!

I can't wait to go home and get more of my books here, can I just bring back one box; ONE box only....pretty pretty pleassseeeee?

I Missed me bookkksssssssss!!!!

I need a FRIEND

All of a sudden, I just need to talk to someone

I missed my friends, I missed my family

I need to have someone whom I am close to and I trust and I just want to be there, hang out and talk and talk and talk
Someone who will not ask me what's wrong and just be there for me

I know I have boyfriend beside me and that's really comforting; he's the bestest friend a girl could have but after the previous post, I feel like I want another; someone true to me and will not forsake me

I need my friend...my TRUE friend, to just be there....let me feel that they are there
If you are my true friend, please text me or let me know through some way or another to make me feel that I am not alone.....

Phasing out

I am afraid sometimes; I just feel that I am phasing out of others' lives.

I feel like I may be shut out of others' lives or end up being forgottten or forcefully pushed out

I do not like that feeling; it makes me feel helpless and really useless and not loved by anyone at all.
Dear says that is not true and that I think too much. I worry too much and I dwell too much on what others think and what I should do to please others that it ended up like I may get tired of trying to please everyone in my life and I myself may lose my own happiness in the process.

Sometimes when I look at photos of friends on outings or vacations, I felt left out. I felt like I was not on others' minds when it comes to invitations, although I feel that I was part to blame as I had always been one who preferred solitary and I loved my books too much.
Even my bestie used to tell me the same thing.

However, I can't feeling that all the same.

Don't get me wrong, I am not that unpopular or unknown girl from school where people don't give the time of the day.
I am in fact, someone who has a profile since young much as I would like to keep a low profile and I get invitations all the time.

Thing is, I am always the quiet and indoor type and I seldom go out or hang out randomly. You can say I am kinda selective with the company I hang out with sometimes, and that's bad and I've rid myself of that.

Still, maybe my habits and everything that says about myself deter people from approaching me.

I just have this nagging fear; that I may be phasing out of others' lives; of others whom I really care about and it is during times like this that I am reminded of people who still care about me and love me.

My family; the closest ever to me and that includes my close relatives as well (close uncles and aunts and cousins from both sides of the family)

My besties and best gal friends who never ever forgot about me and just accepted me the way I was, reprimanding me once in a while to chill out.

My best guy buds who would not hesitate to just give me that piece of mind when they feel I am holding my reins too tightly and not letting my hair down once in a while; just give the shoulder a tight squeeze once in a while

My bestest guy bud; my own brother who would be direct and brutal when it comes to giving out opinions on letting myself go

Another bestest guy bud; my dear who would never have a bad word or reprimand for me and just support me all the way and lending me that shoulder to cry on

My virtual friends who have been giving me advices and encouraging words to go on here in my blog and my social network

I really hope I am not phasing out, I do not want to be forgotten or not loved....it would really hurt/Crush me very badly if that did happen...

Can't Wait and NOT packed

It's been two years and I didn't even have a single trip last year...bummer...

It's alright now, I am looking forward to this upcoming one soon....
I kept telling myself to start packing since last month (don't laugh, I always have to pack early because I will panick and change all my decisions at the very last minute) and till this day, I have not packed yet!

Whatever, I am really counting the days and no, I am not revealing where I am headed to yet, you have to wait for me to come back and blog about it in my travel blog =)

After that, I am heading on another trip but that would be on business, can't wait, can't wait...
Sounds like some Jakun who has never seen the world before eh, try not being able to travel for a year and you tell me how it feels =P

Alone - good or bad?

I don't mean my relationship status; that remains status quo, no change whatsoever =)

I was talking about staying alone.
It was always something I thought of, a lot; I felt it kinda gives me the feeling of great independence.
Maybe I was influenced by all those dramas and movies where career-oriented women or rich women are always owning an apartment/condo to themselves (yeah, somehow it's always apartments, maybe because it made them feel safer?)

So, I was hoping that i could someday be like that myself too and years went by, and the closest I have gotten to was when my other housemates went back to their hometowns for the weekend and I was the only one left in the house.

Much as I would like to envision myself being home alone, it was just not realistic as the rooms were all closed/locked and I only could enjoy the space of the living room, dining hall and the kitchen...and for a limited time of only max. 2 days (sounds like some free trial run when you buy a software)

Some says I am crazy for wanting to stay alone, and my family worries that I stay alone with no one to watch out for me, and the same goes with the boyfriend.

However, I often wondered, it would be really my space, and I could have ALL my things with me at the same time.
For those of you who know me really well; like my best buds, you definitely know that I certainly did not exaggerate with the word "A LOT of stuffs"

I want my books to be lined on shelves after shelves and in a place I could call a library (a dream I've always had since I was five, and I really envy Belle for the library she was presented with by her prince in the castle)
I want my CDs lined on the racks and in chronological or alphabetical order in the cabinets.
I want my movie/drama DVDs categorized and rested properly in the cabinets for easy access (myself only!)
I want to be able to have my clothes and shoes being lined together; not forgetting my bags and accessories as well (Nick once told me I need a walk-in closet; seconded by boyfriend, and brother)

I want my own parking space!
LOL!

Okayyyyy, I shouldn't be complaining that much since I have been pretty fortunate (Thank the Lord) in my house-renting adventures so far as I get the master room with car park, and even if I don't get the master room, I still get the car park because the girl in the master room does not drive.
*Rejoices*

However, when I get to be alone, I do wonder as well, is it really that cool?
There are a lot of things that I think about too:
The Cons
1. SECURITY/SAFETY - I don't think I need to say much about this; that is one of the reasons I prefer to stay in condos

2. CONVENIENCE/HELP NEEDED - with housemates, there's always someone who could look out for you when you are sick or need a hand with something. When you are alone, you just need to depend on yourself. If you are very sick and unable to get out of the bed, well, good luck with yourself and wait for the boyfriend to arrive.

3. HOUSEWORK! - this is the top reason; with housemates sharing the same roof, you only need to clean your room and take turns in maintaining the cleanliness of other rooms in the house. When you are alone, the WHOLE house of more than a 1,000 sqf is your responsibility!
That's more than enough for me!

The PROs
1. NO QUEUE - you get your own bathroom to yourself (this one does not have effect on me as I always have my own attached bathroom), and you do not have to wait for the kitchen sink to clean your cup. This is a YEAY for me, and I can ensure that my sink will always be clean and not stuffed with food (like what happened with the last housemate, gross!)

2. OWN SPACE everywhere - have I not said enough; I can have stuffs anywhere I want without worrying about taking up others' space and being inconsiderate. Furthermore, do not have to worry about possibility of theft among housemates; not everyone is trustworthy, remember?

3. FRIDGE and washing machine is MINE - Double YEAYY for this one as I can place my stuffs in the fridge anyway I want; in neat order and not be bothered by the mess other people created and also, I do not have to worry about others' dirty clothes/stuffs in the washing machine before I use.

There are 3 PROS vs 3 CONS as well, so I guess it is a truce, but I feel that it is always a balance which is why God created companions for us.
Therefore, alone may not necessarily be a good thing too; much as we like privacy...

Weird, and spooked

Something weird happened last night, it was just really bizarre again

I hated it when I wake up at that odd hour of 3-3.30a.m, and found bizarre things
Ohhhh, and I even heard dogs barking non-stop and even howls..

Talk about creepiness; it was really eerie, but I just stayed still and prayed hard to God, the sole reason for comfort and sanity.

I will share my story on my spooks blog; Starry Starry night soon, right now, I feel really cold and feverish (don't associate it to the same incident last night yeah)

A simple 'Good Morning'

Just the other day, I was getting ready to go to work and it was just a morning like any other.

I stepped into the elevator and pressed the lobby.
Midway, the elevator stopped at the 6th floor and a burly guy; an American, dressed in a simple shirt and jeans, with a backpack and an iPod with earphones stuck in one of his ears stepped in.

The unique thing is this, the minute the doors of the elevator opened before he stepped into the elevator, he looked up and gave me a big smile, and greeted me loudly, "Good Morning"

It was definitely to me, as I was the only one in the elevator.

Well, I smiled back, as I felt that it was truly a warm gesture on his part
(I used to do that, but some people just looked away or ignored you. Have you ever come across people who when you smile at them, just look away???)

The elevator reached the lobby quite quickly, and he stood there, I guess he was allowing me to exit the elevator first.

I took my steps, and turned to him, "Have a nice day!" and smiled again

I think he was a little startled, but he smiled back all the same, and replied, "Oh, same to you, lady"

We departed with smiles on our faces.

Really, we were just two strangers who just happened to share the same elevator but these few words exchanged made my day.

Find it funny or exaggerating, I don't find people doing this anymore. Somehow people are too occupied with their lives and some men, oh, when you smile at them, they might think you were coming onto them.

However, I feel that a simple courtesy like this and a smile really made all the difference.
I never did doubt that there are a lot of nice and good people out in the world, in fact, I still believe that there is still good in the world despite all the evil we have seen.

Call me naive, but I still believe that even within the evil hearts, there lies a streak of good.

I still go around smiling at people; not too much at some guys (trust my own instincts) and sometimes I give way or hold the door open for people, and I always tell people to have a nice day.
Am I being too insanely perfect? I don't think so, try doing that and trust me, the world will definitely become a much better place to live in =)

Have a GREAT DAY today =)